This past week has been quite something. I started out with a nasty cold of some sort. I called it allergies gone wild. It definitely dragged me down and forced me to the couch many times in the day to rest. On top of it - 2 days ago (monday) I jumped out of bed, grabbed my housecoat to go down stairs to the kitchen... when I stepped on the top step the bottom of my foot felt like silk and out it went from under me... I reached around to grab the rail to catch my balance but missed... I promptly dropped onto my hip then hit my lower shoulder/side of my ribs still trying to stop my fall by grasping at anything while sliding. To no avail... I slid to the bottom of 14 carpeted stairs. With the wind slightly knocked out of me, my chest and back muscles feeling very pulled and a bruised butt cheek I sat dazed waiting to see if the hurt would get worse or I was okay. After a couple of minutes I felt good enough to move. I was a tad sore but got better throughout the day... but... the next day wasn't so good! I definitely feel that I had a tumble down some stairs. Do I ever feel like a goof for doing that! I have never fallen down stairs before. I have tripped going up tho and shin hacked myself - or I have tripped going down but always caught myself right away with no muss or fuss. It must be my age LOL. Hubby said its cause I wasn't feeling well. Its possible but I still feel pretty stupid about it.
With that said I weighed in today - I lost 2.6 lbs. I am not going to say hurrah as I am still bouncing between 160 and 165... I will get more excited when I no longer have "60" in my #'s. Besides I have been sick this week and not eating much will cause a bigger weight loss.
To rid these allergies gone wild I went to my usual reflexology appointment... when I got home I ended up blowing my nose using 6 kleenex's! I haven't been able to breath this good for quite some time!
So here's to another week. I am feeling better and hoping to get back out and moving more since steps this week were at a minimum due to no energy.
I am doing pretty good with getting across Canada - I am in a step challenge going West to East
I have gone thru HOPE, KAMLOOPS, SALMON ARM, REVELSTOKE, GOLDEN and BANFF. I am now working my way to CALGARY. I have about 45,000 more steps to make Calgary.. I try to do 10,000 steps a day, more if possible... then its a long stretch to MEDICINE HAT.
Here's to a better healthier week.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Without Guilt
Okay I have to laugh. I am down what I gained last week. 0.4lbs. One thing I have figured out is I seem to know how to maintain. I just wish I was maintaining at my goal weight!
Not much new to say. Just plugging along from day to day. Health wise I have been dealing with plugged sinuses, sore throat and a bronchial cough. But then again I have been eating foods that the naturepath said I was sensitive to. Once I have finished getting my income tax all packaged up and sent away to the accountants I will be sitting down and making some meal plans so that I am a lot more organised! I do believe that is where my biggest issue is.
I keep getting told by many ppl, friends, profesionals etc that I have burned myself out.. I think I am starting to believe it cause I used to keep my house spotless, do all my hobbies, volunteer, do the farm, work off farm, canning, baking, premake meals for the freezer, be involved with my kids schooling, etc, etc... there is just no possible way I can do that now. I fight on a daily basis to get the basics done. I have been told it takes time to get my body back into balance... So now I have finally stopped denying the fact and am trying to let myself heal. I have my good days and bad days. People have to take me as I am - and my house as it is. Oh, not to say my house doesn't bother me at times but if they drop in and its not perfect, oh well!
I will get back on track on of these days but I am not going to fret over it. Just get done whats necessary and chill with the rest. There are days when I feel like baking but I no longer do 30 dozen cookies for the freezer, I only double the recipe... with that I still feel I have accomplished something but haven't over done it. I used to bake 20-30 apple pies in a day and put them in the freezer - now I do about 5-10 and the access I bag for later use - either apple sauce or pies for later. I used to can 80-100 lbs of each kind of fruit, now i do 20-40lbs. - If I get strawberries or such for jam I may make a batch then freeze the rest so I can make more jam at a later date when I have the energy instead of staying up til midnight trying to complete it all.
Which brings me to documenting my weight but not fretting over it. I make sure I take time for myself - its a life long deal. I am over guilt - I do what I can handle and no more.
Is this age creeping up, maturity or common sense? LOL I don't know - but I am going to peg it on slowing down and allowing myself to heal from the inside out without the guilt.
Not much new to say. Just plugging along from day to day. Health wise I have been dealing with plugged sinuses, sore throat and a bronchial cough. But then again I have been eating foods that the naturepath said I was sensitive to. Once I have finished getting my income tax all packaged up and sent away to the accountants I will be sitting down and making some meal plans so that I am a lot more organised! I do believe that is where my biggest issue is.
I keep getting told by many ppl, friends, profesionals etc that I have burned myself out.. I think I am starting to believe it cause I used to keep my house spotless, do all my hobbies, volunteer, do the farm, work off farm, canning, baking, premake meals for the freezer, be involved with my kids schooling, etc, etc... there is just no possible way I can do that now. I fight on a daily basis to get the basics done. I have been told it takes time to get my body back into balance... So now I have finally stopped denying the fact and am trying to let myself heal. I have my good days and bad days. People have to take me as I am - and my house as it is. Oh, not to say my house doesn't bother me at times but if they drop in and its not perfect, oh well!
I will get back on track on of these days but I am not going to fret over it. Just get done whats necessary and chill with the rest. There are days when I feel like baking but I no longer do 30 dozen cookies for the freezer, I only double the recipe... with that I still feel I have accomplished something but haven't over done it. I used to bake 20-30 apple pies in a day and put them in the freezer - now I do about 5-10 and the access I bag for later use - either apple sauce or pies for later. I used to can 80-100 lbs of each kind of fruit, now i do 20-40lbs. - If I get strawberries or such for jam I may make a batch then freeze the rest so I can make more jam at a later date when I have the energy instead of staying up til midnight trying to complete it all.
Which brings me to documenting my weight but not fretting over it. I make sure I take time for myself - its a life long deal. I am over guilt - I do what I can handle and no more.
Is this age creeping up, maturity or common sense? LOL I don't know - but I am going to peg it on slowing down and allowing myself to heal from the inside out without the guilt.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Ummmm....
Okay I am up - I am up 0.4lbs... I am headed in the wrong direction again and can't seem to stop the roller coaster. I start out okay in the morning but by lunch its chomp, chomp, munch, munch, Did I eat all that? *sigh*
glug glug glug - try to drown in water to undo some damage.
I would really like to break the 160 mark (at 164.4 AGAIN) and stay BELOW. Not sure what is going to get me to get organized. Would weekly meal plans? I do those then don't get the groceries to follow the plan. I am lazy, lets face it... very very lazy. I have a one track mind... I am getting to where I can only do or focus on one thing at a time. Its all or nothing and right now I am tired. Not a good time to be writing here as it will turn very negative and I promised myself I would keep this blog positive this year. Get into the habit of being positive and hopefully it will become a habit.
With that said - my bed is calling and I will try and refocus tomorrow.
glug glug glug - try to drown in water to undo some damage.
I would really like to break the 160 mark (at 164.4 AGAIN) and stay BELOW. Not sure what is going to get me to get organized. Would weekly meal plans? I do those then don't get the groceries to follow the plan. I am lazy, lets face it... very very lazy. I have a one track mind... I am getting to where I can only do or focus on one thing at a time. Its all or nothing and right now I am tired. Not a good time to be writing here as it will turn very negative and I promised myself I would keep this blog positive this year. Get into the habit of being positive and hopefully it will become a habit.
With that said - my bed is calling and I will try and refocus tomorrow.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Another decision
I have had to make many decisions lately. My latest is whether I continue with my naturepath or not.
I have come to the conclusion it will be "not".
I will admit she has helped me in small areas. She did an allergy test on me and showed me what foods to stay away from. In doing so I have not had any acid reflux. I thought I was sensitive to tomatoes but it is actually the citric acid in foods that is the issue. If I eat fresh tomatoes it doesn't bother me - if I eat canned it does as they use citric acid as a preservative - it is truly amazing how many things have citric acid in it!
Back to my decision...
another area is I no longer feel bloated after I eat which again I believe its staying away from foods my body is sensitive to. I have had to learn a whole new way of cooking and still not doing so good with that but I am getting there!
So that is the Pros...
The Cons... well they are many,
I had a chat with my Reflexologist - she is also a Registered Nurse and very much into natural healing. I have learned to trust her totally. We discussed my last 10 - 15 years and how much stress my body has been under. She suggested (key word! suggested) that my body was needing to recouperate from burnout. She felt that my body was reacting to more stress being put on it from the detox thus giving me the panic attacks and depression. She mentioned it is probably a good thing that I quit the marathon training as it was putting too much pressure on my already stressed/burnedout body. She told me to definitely go on walks, definitely exercise but don't put a marathon stress on it. Let my body heal. Take an hour out of the day and listen to nature, do my regular 'have to do' jobs but let my body heal from the burnout. My body can't take much more without tipping the scale too far - bring my body back into balance before challenging it more.
She suggested that now is not the time to be detoxing as it only puts more strain on my already strained body - maybe once I have healed from the burnout I can go back and try again. She made SO MUCH SENSE!!!
Now why wouldn't the naturepath catch onto that? Why wouldn't she tell me to let my body heal instead of hitting it with more stressers? My naturepath did say that I had probably reached burnout (briefly and in passing). But never elaborated on it and never said what to do about it. I am getting more from my reflexologist, comfort, understanding, no timed visits ( I am there for an hour but if we get talking sometimes I end up being there for 1.5 - 2 hours!), and suggested advice that makes sense.
Yes, I think it is time to just go easy (never thought I would ever ever say that!) let my body heal. Do what I love to do, what I have to do and deal with everyday stress and not add any more. AND key words; NOT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT.
In conclusion, although I don't feel this naturepath has helped me (as much as I wanted) I DO know she has helped my mother HUGE! My mom was VERY sick a year ago - had been for about 2 years when she was introduced to this naturepath. It has been a year for my mom and she has lost 40 lbs, has gone from severe sleep apnea to mild, from no energy and depression to lots of energy and spring cleaning her house! My mom had reached burnout too but that was 15 years ago.. her body has had time to heal.
For myself I think it is just too soon. I reached burnout about 4 years ago but never stopped. My body needs to rest from working so hard battling burnout.
Now that I have written this I need to repeat it to my naturepath... I cancelled my appt with her yesterday as something had come up that I had to do... think I will send her an email and see what she says. But I have made up my mind. I will stay on the food program (avoiding trigger foods) but otherwise I will no longer have appts with her - maybe in a year or so when I feel my body can handle stress again; or maybe I will just go back for another allergy test and see where I am at... time will tell.
I have come to the conclusion it will be "not".
I will admit she has helped me in small areas. She did an allergy test on me and showed me what foods to stay away from. In doing so I have not had any acid reflux. I thought I was sensitive to tomatoes but it is actually the citric acid in foods that is the issue. If I eat fresh tomatoes it doesn't bother me - if I eat canned it does as they use citric acid as a preservative - it is truly amazing how many things have citric acid in it!
Back to my decision...
another area is I no longer feel bloated after I eat which again I believe its staying away from foods my body is sensitive to. I have had to learn a whole new way of cooking and still not doing so good with that but I am getting there!
So that is the Pros...
The Cons... well they are many,
- I had to quit my marathon training because I was getting weaker instead of stronger - truly didn't make sense
- she wants me to drink "her" protien shakes but they make me very nauseous; I tried to tell her that but she changed one of the ingredients from flax to chiaseed and from flax oil to hemp oil... it made no difference ( I knew it wouldn't) cause its her protien powder that is making me ill but she won't hear that. Funny thing is she told me I was allergic to all rice - but her protein powder is a rice powder - when I brought it up to her she told me I will be fine taking it. hmmmph.
- I quit taking her supplements once again - as the first time it was making me have panic attacks - some ingredient in it I was very sensitive to... the second time (this last time) I was falling into a deep depression - when a person like me who has major drive, a go-getter and passionate about everything becomes a lump on the couch for 3 days and doesn't care about the world around me.. that is a major problem! within a few days of not taking her supplements I am somewhat (not totally) back to "normal".
- Since taking her supplements I have had more night sweats than ever before - once I quit it has gone back to "normal"
- I was always feeling tired and weak, light headed enough to nearly pass out - once I stopped the supplements I have got my energy back, can get up in the morning and get things done in a day
- I have to admit I was not happy when she reprimanded me about losing more muscle than fat - I for a fact know that you can change that number on the scale within an hour - depending on what you do - eat more, drink more etc.
- I still get the discomfort/pain under my ribs -
- when I started on her program I had a constant sore throat - once I quit taking her throat spray that was supposed to boost my immune system the sore throat left too.
- She doesn't comunicate - she sets a timer when you walk in the room and she asks a couple of questions and "ring!" times up! Her salesman secretary (male) doesn't stop talking about how "wonderful her products are" and "they are the best" "better than anyones out there". I hate high pressure sales especially when they are trying to sell me something expensive and I really don't think it will help me. He is always talking vegetarian and I am not a vegetarian and never plan to be one.
I had a chat with my Reflexologist - she is also a Registered Nurse and very much into natural healing. I have learned to trust her totally. We discussed my last 10 - 15 years and how much stress my body has been under. She suggested (key word! suggested) that my body was needing to recouperate from burnout. She felt that my body was reacting to more stress being put on it from the detox thus giving me the panic attacks and depression. She mentioned it is probably a good thing that I quit the marathon training as it was putting too much pressure on my already stressed/burnedout body. She told me to definitely go on walks, definitely exercise but don't put a marathon stress on it. Let my body heal. Take an hour out of the day and listen to nature, do my regular 'have to do' jobs but let my body heal from the burnout. My body can't take much more without tipping the scale too far - bring my body back into balance before challenging it more.
She suggested that now is not the time to be detoxing as it only puts more strain on my already strained body - maybe once I have healed from the burnout I can go back and try again. She made SO MUCH SENSE!!!
Now why wouldn't the naturepath catch onto that? Why wouldn't she tell me to let my body heal instead of hitting it with more stressers? My naturepath did say that I had probably reached burnout (briefly and in passing). But never elaborated on it and never said what to do about it. I am getting more from my reflexologist, comfort, understanding, no timed visits ( I am there for an hour but if we get talking sometimes I end up being there for 1.5 - 2 hours!), and suggested advice that makes sense.
Yes, I think it is time to just go easy (never thought I would ever ever say that!) let my body heal. Do what I love to do, what I have to do and deal with everyday stress and not add any more. AND key words; NOT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT.
In conclusion, although I don't feel this naturepath has helped me (as much as I wanted) I DO know she has helped my mother HUGE! My mom was VERY sick a year ago - had been for about 2 years when she was introduced to this naturepath. It has been a year for my mom and she has lost 40 lbs, has gone from severe sleep apnea to mild, from no energy and depression to lots of energy and spring cleaning her house! My mom had reached burnout too but that was 15 years ago.. her body has had time to heal.
For myself I think it is just too soon. I reached burnout about 4 years ago but never stopped. My body needs to rest from working so hard battling burnout.
Now that I have written this I need to repeat it to my naturepath... I cancelled my appt with her yesterday as something had come up that I had to do... think I will send her an email and see what she says. But I have made up my mind. I will stay on the food program (avoiding trigger foods) but otherwise I will no longer have appts with her - maybe in a year or so when I feel my body can handle stress again; or maybe I will just go back for another allergy test and see where I am at... time will tell.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Don't knock me
Well, I have made up my mind. I am not going to do the Marthon in Vancouver Washington. There are far too many Cons. It is a 5 hour drive one way, It will cost $500 for hotel, it is at the end of April and we will be crazily in the fields doing spring planting or cropping. There are more reasons but you get the drift.
I can very easily find a marathon here as they are happening all the time (I am on an email list from the Running room). I will possibly continue the saturday walks but with our fabulous weather we have been outside getting things done and I've gotta "make hay while the sun shines"! No we are not making hay right now but the way our mild winter is going and Spring coming up fast... I wouldn't be surprised if we weren't making hay soon! Or at least silage...
I have had to do a lot of thinking about this - it was a hard decision but I think its for the best. I certainly won't be stopping getting my steps in! No way, I am doing a challenge of walking across Canada and I am Just outside of Golden BC heading for Banff AB. Might visit a few cyber friends along the way! Or maybe I will just wave on my way by LOL
Cheers!
I can very easily find a marathon here as they are happening all the time (I am on an email list from the Running room). I will possibly continue the saturday walks but with our fabulous weather we have been outside getting things done and I've gotta "make hay while the sun shines"! No we are not making hay right now but the way our mild winter is going and Spring coming up fast... I wouldn't be surprised if we weren't making hay soon! Or at least silage...
I have had to do a lot of thinking about this - it was a hard decision but I think its for the best. I certainly won't be stopping getting my steps in! No way, I am doing a challenge of walking across Canada and I am Just outside of Golden BC heading for Banff AB. Might visit a few cyber friends along the way! Or maybe I will just wave on my way by LOL
Cheers!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
WI and Record
I have managed to lose 2 lbs this week. Do I sound excited? Nope... I just lost the weight I gained last week. I would be well below 160 if I wouldn't have gained last week.
I have been battling depression... not sure why... but most days I make myself a list of things to do and maybe do one thing. I have had no get-up-and-go I just feel blah. Could really care less whether something gets done or not and yet it bugs me that its not getting done but so far I am managing to ignore that feeling. Where has my drive gone? Down the tube with all the water I have been drinking, maybe. LOL
Okay, pitty party over... I did however try on some clothes in my closet that I bought last fall at a summer blow out sale. It was too small, in more places than one but I got them with the hopes of fitting them one day. Well, my wedding anniversary was on Feb 27 and I needed something to wear... I put them on and to my surprise they fit! Not perfectly in the boobs (a little snug) but thats okay! I am sure my boobs will continue to shrink with my weight loss LOL
I did some measuring again. To try and cheer myself up. Its been a month since I did it last and have lost 4.5 inches off this body.
Feb 3 Mar 3
Neck 15 14
Chest 41 40
Waist 36 34.5
Hips 40 39
R arm 11.75 12
R thigh 22 22.5
I am wondering if my leg and arm size went up cause of all the walking I have been doing and I have started to use my arms quite a bit too. Arms with the walking stix and swimming.
So there you have it... the bare me.
A little story I have to share about my Mom. Mom was 0.8lbs away from getting her 40lb loss award today... she lost 0.4! SO CLOSE! Next week she will surely do it...but she was SO CLOSE! She is taking it in stride and says "til next weigh in".
I have been battling depression... not sure why... but most days I make myself a list of things to do and maybe do one thing. I have had no get-up-and-go I just feel blah. Could really care less whether something gets done or not and yet it bugs me that its not getting done but so far I am managing to ignore that feeling. Where has my drive gone? Down the tube with all the water I have been drinking, maybe. LOL
Okay, pitty party over... I did however try on some clothes in my closet that I bought last fall at a summer blow out sale. It was too small, in more places than one but I got them with the hopes of fitting them one day. Well, my wedding anniversary was on Feb 27 and I needed something to wear... I put them on and to my surprise they fit! Not perfectly in the boobs (a little snug) but thats okay! I am sure my boobs will continue to shrink with my weight loss LOL
Feb 3 Mar 3
Neck 15 14
Chest 41 40
Waist 36 34.5
Hips 40 39
R arm 11.75 12
R thigh 22 22.5
I am wondering if my leg and arm size went up cause of all the walking I have been doing and I have started to use my arms quite a bit too. Arms with the walking stix and swimming.
So there you have it... the bare me.
A little story I have to share about my Mom. Mom was 0.8lbs away from getting her 40lb loss award today... she lost 0.4! SO CLOSE! Next week she will surely do it...but she was SO CLOSE! She is taking it in stride and says "til next weigh in".
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