Hi - Yes I am still here... since my last little rant and stomping of feet I went down 1/2 pound. I will be weighing in on Wednesday - yes I am a die hard... I rant but keep on, keeping on.
I had a down day today - its that female thing - it always takes the wind out of my sails. Hopefully tomorrow I will have a day of accomplishments instead of a day on the couch aching from head to foot, blurred vision and ignoring the phone.
Yesterday I stepped on the scale unofficially and I was down about 4 lbs - I really really hope it shows up like that on the official weigh in.
I need to find my mojo in everything. I am behind in paperwork, have done ZERO Christmas gifts, haven't decorated my house yet, haven't written and sent my Christmas letter yet... Yeah I am really a lump on a log right now. Not depressed... just feeling a little swamped.
I have inspiration I just need the energy to get it done.
One day at a time...
P.S. what would you do if you had someone consistently complaining about something ( a lot of it is legit) but if that person would try to find the good things in day to day... and stop trying to be a perfectionist and wanting everyone else to be perfect around them... yes, I am getting brought down by this. AND I try to say things gently about it but the person takes things very personally and thinks I am against them too. *sigh* I get called 6+ times a day about some complaint or other... to the point where my hubby doesn't wanting me to answer the phone - but I do.
I love them dearly but its very discouraging and I think my listening is becoming an enabler.
Monday, December 10, 2012
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Going no where fast
I had a very disappointing week - its becoming normal... I have gained nearly 3 pounds. Not what I was expecting. I didn't diligently track but I did track and I was careful what I ate. It repaid me with a slap of fat on the a**.
Losing weight should NOT be this difficult!
If I lost weight as fast as I gained I would be aneorexic by now.
I'm trying not to get frustrated by it. But when my doctor shrugs her shoulders and says there is nothing wrong so there is no reason why I shouldn't be dropping the pounds. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
Is it ME? as in all in my head? What am I NOT doing? Yeah I am NOT slugging away in a gym - that costs money and I do not agree that I have to bust my a** in a gym to get results. I don't want to be a body builder I just want to lose some weight.
When I did go to a nature path I was losing weight... but then she yelled at me and reprimanded me for losing muscle and not fat. That ended that relationship. She never told me how I could switch it around she just got mad at me for doing it. She wasn't helpful at all and left me feeling like crap. I make myself feel like crap all the time I don't need someone else doing it too.
I haven't fully ruled out a nature path... but again... why should I pay that kind of money to get results?
I don't get it... honestly, I do not get it.
I have 50 pounds to lose and I have NO IDEA how to get it off.
Losing weight should NOT be this difficult!
If I lost weight as fast as I gained I would be aneorexic by now.
I'm trying not to get frustrated by it. But when my doctor shrugs her shoulders and says there is nothing wrong so there is no reason why I shouldn't be dropping the pounds. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
Is it ME? as in all in my head? What am I NOT doing? Yeah I am NOT slugging away in a gym - that costs money and I do not agree that I have to bust my a** in a gym to get results. I don't want to be a body builder I just want to lose some weight.
When I did go to a nature path I was losing weight... but then she yelled at me and reprimanded me for losing muscle and not fat. That ended that relationship. She never told me how I could switch it around she just got mad at me for doing it. She wasn't helpful at all and left me feeling like crap. I make myself feel like crap all the time I don't need someone else doing it too.
I haven't fully ruled out a nature path... but again... why should I pay that kind of money to get results?
I don't get it... honestly, I do not get it.
I have 50 pounds to lose and I have NO IDEA how to get it off.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Stamina
Ive been working on things again. Trying to stay focused. I have gone from using my WW app on my iPhone to writing things down in a 3 month journal. I write everything down... everything.. even if I don't know the points, I am writing it down anyway.
I have had some incredibly weak moments - and I had some today... but tomorrow is a new day.
My SIL shared a video on face book and I have decided to share it here. It touched me deeply - more deeply than I want to admit.
The Amazing Transformation
I have a lot of ideas and hope to put them into action. I fight against myself wanting to do it and the body resisting. I get tired before I start.
I have decided to step back from more volunteer jobs that I do to make room for me and my hubby. I have to be careful though as I have the tendency to step back, then sit down. Or better yet (or not better) fill it with something else to keep me busy instead of focusing on what I should.
Prioritize... what is important
1. family
2. animals
3. hobby
4. health
not necessarily in that order but that is my 4 main focus's. I tend to get side tracked... each of those "titles" have a huge number of outlets
for example: everything has a responsibility and what I list here is a drop in the bucket to some of the things that I do under each title.
Its easier to cheer on others than to cheer on yourself.
Its almost more satisfying too.
Its easier to say "you did good" than 'I did good".
I have been listening to myself lately when I talk... I talk very negatively on any subject. I was at a rugby game today and was talking to a lady who was very excited about the game. We got onto the subject of bad coaches and bad players (meaning yelling at Ref or playing dirty). This game wasn't like that... why did I get on that subject? Why would I say a negative thing like that to bring the other ladies excitement down? Our team lost 21-20... but that as pretty darn good! They played hard... so hard in fact that one man broke his collar bone and the other dislocated his shoulder. Yeah Rugby is a rough game.
I find I am quick to pick apart... I am my own worst judge... definitely one part of me that I don't like...
One day at WW we were told to stand in front of the mirror every morning for a week and look at yourself, then tell yourself one good thing about you (something different every day). I promptly forgot to do it but when she mentioned to do it I couldn't think of one good thing to say about myself. I thought "there is no way I can do this". Probably why I promptly forgot about it. I have always looked in the mirror and picked myself apart not told myself whats good about me. 45 years of that kind of training and its fairly stuck - in a rut -
Trying to change that way of thinking isn't easy - I am always looking at "what was", and don't like "what is" but now I am hoping for "what can be"
With the empty nest at home and with both hubby and I needing to get into shape and stick with eating healthy - I am thinking of making one room into a workout/guest room... not that hubby would use it (that's a whole other post) but if I start maybe he will join me. Its my journey, but its nice to have company along the way.
I have had some incredibly weak moments - and I had some today... but tomorrow is a new day.
My SIL shared a video on face book and I have decided to share it here. It touched me deeply - more deeply than I want to admit.
The Amazing Transformation
I have a lot of ideas and hope to put them into action. I fight against myself wanting to do it and the body resisting. I get tired before I start.
I have decided to step back from more volunteer jobs that I do to make room for me and my hubby. I have to be careful though as I have the tendency to step back, then sit down. Or better yet (or not better) fill it with something else to keep me busy instead of focusing on what I should.
Prioritize... what is important
1. family
2. animals
3. hobby
4. health
not necessarily in that order but that is my 4 main focus's. I tend to get side tracked... each of those "titles" have a huge number of outlets
for example: everything has a responsibility and what I list here is a drop in the bucket to some of the things that I do under each title.
- Family: my children> my husband>mother>FIL/MIL> nieces> nephews> brothers> SIL's>extended family: cousins>aunts>uncles... etc
- Animals: farming > cows> sheep> alpaca's >chores > selling >buying > breeding > paperwork > etc
- Hobby: spinning yarn> weaving>knitting> needlework> genealogy> painting/drawing> photography> travel > etc
- Health: getting fit> healthy (happy) weight
Its easier to cheer on others than to cheer on yourself.
Its almost more satisfying too.
Its easier to say "you did good" than 'I did good".
I have been listening to myself lately when I talk... I talk very negatively on any subject. I was at a rugby game today and was talking to a lady who was very excited about the game. We got onto the subject of bad coaches and bad players (meaning yelling at Ref or playing dirty). This game wasn't like that... why did I get on that subject? Why would I say a negative thing like that to bring the other ladies excitement down? Our team lost 21-20... but that as pretty darn good! They played hard... so hard in fact that one man broke his collar bone and the other dislocated his shoulder. Yeah Rugby is a rough game.
I find I am quick to pick apart... I am my own worst judge... definitely one part of me that I don't like...
One day at WW we were told to stand in front of the mirror every morning for a week and look at yourself, then tell yourself one good thing about you (something different every day). I promptly forgot to do it but when she mentioned to do it I couldn't think of one good thing to say about myself. I thought "there is no way I can do this". Probably why I promptly forgot about it. I have always looked in the mirror and picked myself apart not told myself whats good about me. 45 years of that kind of training and its fairly stuck - in a rut -
Trying to change that way of thinking isn't easy - I am always looking at "what was", and don't like "what is" but now I am hoping for "what can be"
With the empty nest at home and with both hubby and I needing to get into shape and stick with eating healthy - I am thinking of making one room into a workout/guest room... not that hubby would use it (that's a whole other post) but if I start maybe he will join me. Its my journey, but its nice to have company along the way.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
BC Circle Tour
I have just updated my steps on here... I have 117,500 more steps to go to complete my walk around BC. I will definitely finish that by the end of 2012
That is 19,584 steps a week... or 2800 steps in a day... at this moment I average 6000 steps a day... and when I get out and away from my desk I average 10000 steps a day.
I have to admit I am ready for this to be over ... I have been doing walking challenges for 3 years now... It has helped me to see that I need to get out and walk more - awareness is good. So now that I am aware I don't feel the need to do these challenges.
It has been good for me and for others that have been a part of this challenge.. don't know what Jill will set up as a walk/step challenge for 2013... I'll see ... I may or may not join. I will probably miss the star stickers we get at the meeting ;)
I don't care how 'grown up' you are - a sticker still means a lot when you have achieved something LOL
I do like walking... and what even makes it better is when I have my camera with me and I can capture many moments and memories.. and beauty of nature and farm.
That is 19,584 steps a week... or 2800 steps in a day... at this moment I average 6000 steps a day... and when I get out and away from my desk I average 10000 steps a day.
I have to admit I am ready for this to be over ... I have been doing walking challenges for 3 years now... It has helped me to see that I need to get out and walk more - awareness is good. So now that I am aware I don't feel the need to do these challenges.
It has been good for me and for others that have been a part of this challenge.. don't know what Jill will set up as a walk/step challenge for 2013... I'll see ... I may or may not join. I will probably miss the star stickers we get at the meeting ;)
I don't care how 'grown up' you are - a sticker still means a lot when you have achieved something LOL
I do like walking... and what even makes it better is when I have my camera with me and I can capture many moments and memories.. and beauty of nature and farm.
Liebster Award
I was nominated for this award by a friend, Jodi from In My Corner... oh dear... not sure if I am up to this! I was told to have fun with it... I am not used to this type of attention and I definitely shy away from podiums! I will do all the grunt work to research for a nomination; I can give praise to anyone and encourage them along but I am so not used to the tables being turned!
It apparently is to get more followers on your blog... I am finding out I have several people that read my blog but I was not aware cause they don't leave comments :( and they have not officially signed on to follow me.
I don't know if I have 5 bloggers to link this too but here we go...
The Rules:
1. State 11 personal facts.
2. Answer the questions from the person who nominated you.
3. Nominate 5 bloggers who have less than 200 followers (no tag backs) and ask them random questions.
4. Complete your post.
5. Link up your post on the originating bloggers post.
Personal Facts
- I tend to sit at my computer way too much - either doing newsletters or organizing events for volunteer positions I have or paperwork for my farm
- I have way too many patience for my 18 year old cat that keeps peeing on things in my house
- I have big dreams/goals and am the worlds biggest procrastinator
- I am an empty nester - and actually enjoying it :)
- I love to knit, weave, spin yarn on a floor wheel or drop spindle.
- I like to wear "old fashioned" clothes - yep the long dresses - or ballgowns from the 1800's and before.
- I hate shopping - yes I am not the type to be going to the mall and spending hours & $. I am very practical - if I don't need it I don't get it.
- I don't like cooking cause that means I have to clean up after and I hate dishes.
- I love to read historical books and watch the history channel - gee am I boring eh?
- I could sit in a yarn shop - in the middle of the floor and close my eye - breath deep - exhale... and that's my yoga
- I was going to leave this for a later date... cause I am a procrastinator LOL is that personal enough?
And here are my questions from Jodi:
1. If you could be any person of the opposite sex who would it be? WHY?
I have never wished myself to be someone else... wouldn't even know who to chose. When younger I wanted to be a boy cause I thought life was so much easier for them in so many ways... but never wanted to be a specific person.
2. If your life were a book what would the title be, what would the cover look like?WHY?
Title from my point of view or my kids? LOL hmmm, The Wild Journey... and it would have a picture of a grass field with sheep, alpacas and cows chewing on a round bale of hay with me wrapped up in the middle with my eyes peaking out
3. What does a typical day in the life of YOU look like?
haahaha oh my... well, its swish and swipe, make bed etc... go downstairs and find out what hubby has planned for the day (that will depend on what my day will be like) - then I am either running around for others or office work or out with my sheep or with the cows; on the phone with my mom... I don't know... every day is different.
4. What is a hobby you have always wanted to try but haven't? And what is holding you back from trying it? Hobby;s are one thing I have never held back from. I have tried everything I wanted to try and if the whim hits me again I will continue to learn something new.
5. What are three words you would use to describe your style?
Plain, to the point, boring
Well, that is pretty much me... I have a real hard time with these things. Cause I am just ME I don't k now how to explain me.
I am a party pooper.. I don't have anyone to send this to.
Hope it hasn't freaked you out to find out more quirks about me.
Friday, November 2, 2012
?? Title??
I am finding titles to my blog posts very repititious... so for a loss of words and repeating myself I have left it up to you to decide.
Thank you to those who sent me kind words after my last post. Although I do get frustrated, deep down I know I will continue the struggle - cause if I don't, god only knows how much weight I would gain! At least now, although not at a healthy weight for me I am maintaining within 5 lbs.
On a very positive note, My mom has been doing very well. She has broke through that 180 mark and staying below. She struggled for some time due to food that has been served in the home she lives. Everyone has thier cooking night but the family members love thier bacon, full cream, whip cream, icecream, cakes, potatoes and cooking with a lot of fat. Fat isn't a bad thing but in high quantities, not so good. My mom has a hard time saying no... and when you live in the same house it is nice to have cooking nights off but it truly backfires. Especially since my mom has a lot of allergies to different foods and many times she would eat them so she didn't have to cause friction or just tired of explaining herself.
Its hard to stay on program (no matter what program you may be on) when no one understands what should be along with your strengths and weaknesses.
It does take work - and I am the worlds biggest procrastinator and seem to be getting worse as I get older. I always say "tomorrow" but we all know tomorrow never comes.
So what am I doing about today? I have started off on a bad foot already - missed breakfast and am making turkey bacon, hashbrowns, eggs and fruit for lunch.
I haven't had anything to drink yet today... yah, need to get my planning cap on.
One thing that has me baffled... I have been having a lot of acid reflux at night over the past week and yet last night after my birthday dinner of eating foods I was completely prepared to douse myself with Tums after... I slept like a baby and never had anything close to a tummy ache. That was with no Tums taken. weird...
My body really confuses me! LOL
Time to bring the heavy machinery in and grade my road so its a little smoother.
Thank you to those who sent me kind words after my last post. Although I do get frustrated, deep down I know I will continue the struggle - cause if I don't, god only knows how much weight I would gain! At least now, although not at a healthy weight for me I am maintaining within 5 lbs.
On a very positive note, My mom has been doing very well. She has broke through that 180 mark and staying below. She struggled for some time due to food that has been served in the home she lives. Everyone has thier cooking night but the family members love thier bacon, full cream, whip cream, icecream, cakes, potatoes and cooking with a lot of fat. Fat isn't a bad thing but in high quantities, not so good. My mom has a hard time saying no... and when you live in the same house it is nice to have cooking nights off but it truly backfires. Especially since my mom has a lot of allergies to different foods and many times she would eat them so she didn't have to cause friction or just tired of explaining herself.
Its hard to stay on program (no matter what program you may be on) when no one understands what should be along with your strengths and weaknesses.
It does take work - and I am the worlds biggest procrastinator and seem to be getting worse as I get older. I always say "tomorrow" but we all know tomorrow never comes.
So what am I doing about today? I have started off on a bad foot already - missed breakfast and am making turkey bacon, hashbrowns, eggs and fruit for lunch.
I haven't had anything to drink yet today... yah, need to get my planning cap on.
One thing that has me baffled... I have been having a lot of acid reflux at night over the past week and yet last night after my birthday dinner of eating foods I was completely prepared to douse myself with Tums after... I slept like a baby and never had anything close to a tummy ache. That was with no Tums taken. weird...
My body really confuses me! LOL
Time to bring the heavy machinery in and grade my road so its a little smoother.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Seriously thinking
Today I went to weigh in. Honestly it was not on the top of my list. My Mom gave the push and I showed up. First up, it was my free week. I had forgotten about that. Then I lost 0.5 pounds. Hurrah? I don't feel that way. In my opinion, next week will Be up again. I'm having a hard time with the up and down. I work hard and it goes down in tiny increments. I'm ok with that. But when I continue to work hard and it leaps up and destroys my small victories.... That is when I get feeling very defeated.
I continually look back at 2007 when I was 10 lbs away from goal and wonder what the heck happened.
I really want to be close to goal for our 25 wedding anniversary but that goal seems to be fading into a foggy dream.
Maybe I am going about it all wrong. It doesn't help when I eat I get seriously bloated, have pain and get nasty acid reflux. My digestive system seems to be seriously screwed up. Probably a large part of my problem.
This morning this post was going to be titled "Last Post". I was going to shut down this blog along with "trying" to continue this WL. journey. I'm told " be happy with who you are and what you look like". So I was thinking this blog is not necessary when I need to accept me for me and others don't need to read my whining.
I am seriously thinking of terminating this blog as it seems to only be a complaints outlet. Once again I'm not feeling very positive.
I continually look back at 2007 when I was 10 lbs away from goal and wonder what the heck happened.
I really want to be close to goal for our 25 wedding anniversary but that goal seems to be fading into a foggy dream.
Maybe I am going about it all wrong. It doesn't help when I eat I get seriously bloated, have pain and get nasty acid reflux. My digestive system seems to be seriously screwed up. Probably a large part of my problem.
This morning this post was going to be titled "Last Post". I was going to shut down this blog along with "trying" to continue this WL. journey. I'm told " be happy with who you are and what you look like". So I was thinking this blog is not necessary when I need to accept me for me and others don't need to read my whining.
I am seriously thinking of terminating this blog as it seems to only be a complaints outlet. Once again I'm not feeling very positive.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Time for an update!
Hidey Ho!
Yes, I have been hiding lately LOL Not really intentionally but for the most part just knowing I am not as bouncy (um maybe a bad choice in a word haha) about keeping track of things.
Diligence hasn't been in my vocab of late but I am drifting along, somewhat maintaining.
Yes, I am happy with that but I still have my anniversary focus in the back of my mind.
I also have some ideas of cutting back on some of my voluntary jobs that I do so I can focus on my home stuff and be more organized in the food area.
I just got over a Sheep Fleece Show and Sale and I am now neck deep in a Dairy Awards Banquet. Oh and on the same weekend I have a vendor table at an Artisan Sale... that doesn't include working at home and on our farm. Yeah, I am feeling the need to slow down some more and spending some time on "me". Not fanatically, but just getting into more of a routine.
Not much to say - just thought I would touch base. I did gain a tad (0.5lbs) over the past 2 weeks which I don't think is bad at all considering my eating habits.
Gotta get more water in... maybe write it on my forehead so I remember!
Have a good one!
Yes, I have been hiding lately LOL Not really intentionally but for the most part just knowing I am not as bouncy (um maybe a bad choice in a word haha) about keeping track of things.
Diligence hasn't been in my vocab of late but I am drifting along, somewhat maintaining.
Yes, I am happy with that but I still have my anniversary focus in the back of my mind.
I also have some ideas of cutting back on some of my voluntary jobs that I do so I can focus on my home stuff and be more organized in the food area.
I just got over a Sheep Fleece Show and Sale and I am now neck deep in a Dairy Awards Banquet. Oh and on the same weekend I have a vendor table at an Artisan Sale... that doesn't include working at home and on our farm. Yeah, I am feeling the need to slow down some more and spending some time on "me". Not fanatically, but just getting into more of a routine.
Not much to say - just thought I would touch base. I did gain a tad (0.5lbs) over the past 2 weeks which I don't think is bad at all considering my eating habits.
Gotta get more water in... maybe write it on my forehead so I remember!
Have a good one!
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Still here!
Yep I'm still here... A little more of me instead of less (grrrr) last week I gained way more than I like to admit but I will admit my frustration!
It does help to have proper food in the house. Or better yet, food in general. I finally managed to grab some groceries on Friday to make my meal decisions a little easier.
Looking forward to see the scale numbers go DOWN this week and not up.
One incentive is we are supposed to bring our tracker in this week to share with others at the meeting - that should be motivating eh?
I've had a lot going on this week so hoping its not going to have a negative affect on me.
Time to get busy. Cheers!
It does help to have proper food in the house. Or better yet, food in general. I finally managed to grab some groceries on Friday to make my meal decisions a little easier.
Looking forward to see the scale numbers go DOWN this week and not up.
One incentive is we are supposed to bring our tracker in this week to share with others at the meeting - that should be motivating eh?
I've had a lot going on this week so hoping its not going to have a negative affect on me.
Time to get busy. Cheers!
Sunday, September 16, 2012
No words
I know I should write something here but I can't think of anything to write.
Hmmm, well at last WI I was down again. Not much 0.4lbs but that is ok cause it was down not up. I was disappointed a bit though, not from the WL but from what happened at the meeting.
Back in June we filled out a card ... We had to write down what our goal(s) would be over summer. My goal was walk more and lose 10 pounds. Both very doable.
But didn't
Oh I have been getting more steps in during the day but I definitely did not lose 10 lbs. I had lost 5 and gained it back. So If you add it together 10 pounds was involved but not to the full extent or to the end result. So back to the drawing board. Hopefully the picture will become a whole lot more clear and correct for my next goal
Hmmm, well at last WI I was down again. Not much 0.4lbs but that is ok cause it was down not up. I was disappointed a bit though, not from the WL but from what happened at the meeting.
Back in June we filled out a card ... We had to write down what our goal(s) would be over summer. My goal was walk more and lose 10 pounds. Both very doable.
But didn't
Oh I have been getting more steps in during the day but I definitely did not lose 10 lbs. I had lost 5 and gained it back. So If you add it together 10 pounds was involved but not to the full extent or to the end result. So back to the drawing board. Hopefully the picture will become a whole lot more clear and correct for my next goal
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Down
Its a positive title to be down again... I seem to gain if I lose in large increments in a week but the past three weeks it's been -0.2 , -0.7 and this week -0.4
Easy does it and I'm happy it's going in the right direction!
Maybe I am finally getting the hang of this lifetime choices? Or maybe my body has finally decided to respond appropriately? I don't think I will ever know. My body keeps me guessing all the time.
One thing I do know is I'm still on track and plan to travel this road for a long time.
Winners never quit and quitters never win.
Easy does it and I'm happy it's going in the right direction!
Maybe I am finally getting the hang of this lifetime choices? Or maybe my body has finally decided to respond appropriately? I don't think I will ever know. My body keeps me guessing all the time.
One thing I do know is I'm still on track and plan to travel this road for a long time.
Winners never quit and quitters never win.
Monday, September 3, 2012
This is a test
For some reason blogger is giving me issues with the app.
It's telling me I have insufficient space to post.
This post is to test it in my second blog to see if it will repeat itself.
So If you see this you know it worked!
It's telling me I have insufficient space to post.
This post is to test it in my second blog to see if it will repeat itself.
So If you see this you know it worked!
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Travel
I peeled out of here last Monday on a journey to AB - a very fast journey... Came home Wednesday.
Monday started out great I never ate any munchy junk food like I usually do. I stuck to my water bottle and tracked my food.
Tuesday was a little different. I was at the mercy of someone else cooking and serving. I tried to have little... But when we met for lunch at Costco (his choice) that was slim healthy pickings. This day my water intake slipped too.
Wednesday was wacky. On the road at 6am with fast food and fast pit stops along the way. We were transporting animals so wanted to get the 12 hour trip over ASAP.
Since this trip it's been a little down hill for me.
Missed WI on Wednesday so it should be double good this week right?
Gotta get back in the grove for tracking and get my water consumption back up.
Getting groceries would probably help with that greatly!
Winners never quit and quitters never win. Unknown
Monday started out great I never ate any munchy junk food like I usually do. I stuck to my water bottle and tracked my food.
Tuesday was a little different. I was at the mercy of someone else cooking and serving. I tried to have little... But when we met for lunch at Costco (his choice) that was slim healthy pickings. This day my water intake slipped too.
Wednesday was wacky. On the road at 6am with fast food and fast pit stops along the way. We were transporting animals so wanted to get the 12 hour trip over ASAP.
Since this trip it's been a little down hill for me.
Missed WI on Wednesday so it should be double good this week right?
Gotta get back in the grove for tracking and get my water consumption back up.
Getting groceries would probably help with that greatly!
Winners never quit and quitters never win. Unknown
Friday, August 24, 2012
Small things
NO EXCUSES
Still on the right path here...
I was very excited this morning... I stepped on the scale and the number changed from 18- to 17-!
Made my whole day a positive one.
Got my trusty water bottle beside me at my desk - been a tad cold lately as its definitely turning to Fall time.
I love those crisp mornings and warm days.
I am sitting with slippers on and a sweater but oh so cozy and I love cozy.
Tis a good day today.
Still on the right path here...
I was very excited this morning... I stepped on the scale and the number changed from 18- to 17-!
Made my whole day a positive one.
Got my trusty water bottle beside me at my desk - been a tad cold lately as its definitely turning to Fall time.
I love those crisp mornings and warm days.
I am sitting with slippers on and a sweater but oh so cozy and I love cozy.
Tis a good day today.
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
I'll take it
NO EXCUSES
I am still tracking, still drinking lots of water, still... well okay I am not setting aside time to stretch, me bad, but I am still walking so that counts.
Today was WI...I had great expectations... I shouldn't do that cause then I get let down.
Good news is I did lose weight - 0.7lbs to be exact but I was hoping for more.
I'm going to blame it on being a woman LOL
This body does what it wants to no matter how well you feed it or exercise it.
I will stay the course and hopefully next week will show bigger numbers.
One week down and 27 more weeks to go.
If I lost a pound a week I should be down 27 pounds by my 25th wedding anniversary. I still won't be at goal - I would be a little over 8 lbs from goal... but I will be a much happier me! I will have a whole new wardrobe (that box that has been sitting in my closet saying "hurry up so you can wear the stuff that I have been storing for you!"
I can do this... I know I can... I have done this before. I will do this... I need to push myself harder.
“I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." Jimmy Dean
I am still tracking, still drinking lots of water, still... well okay I am not setting aside time to stretch, me bad, but I am still walking so that counts.
Today was WI...I had great expectations... I shouldn't do that cause then I get let down.
Good news is I did lose weight - 0.7lbs to be exact but I was hoping for more.
I'm going to blame it on being a woman LOL
This body does what it wants to no matter how well you feed it or exercise it.
I will stay the course and hopefully next week will show bigger numbers.
One week down and 27 more weeks to go.
If I lost a pound a week I should be down 27 pounds by my 25th wedding anniversary. I still won't be at goal - I would be a little over 8 lbs from goal... but I will be a much happier me! I will have a whole new wardrobe (that box that has been sitting in my closet saying "hurry up so you can wear the stuff that I have been storing for you!"
I can do this... I know I can... I have done this before. I will do this... I need to push myself harder.
“I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." Jimmy Dean
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Twas the night before...
Weigh in...
and all was quiet.
the crockpot was steaming
the aroma a delight.
Beef stew on the menu
chalk full of vegetables.
Potatoes, onions, carrots & parsley too.
Soon to be greeted
chopped Swiss chard,
celery and beets heated
a choice to be made,
homemade biscuits or bread,
truly depends on points paid.
Although this little ditty
is quite the jumble
it will fix my tummy rumble.
by Marianne Iberg Aug 21,2012
and all was quiet.
the crockpot was steaming
the aroma a delight.
Beef stew on the menu
chalk full of vegetables.
Potatoes, onions, carrots & parsley too.
Soon to be greeted
chopped Swiss chard,
celery and beets heated
a choice to be made,
homemade biscuits or bread,
truly depends on points paid.
Although this little ditty
is quite the jumble
it will fix my tummy rumble.
by Marianne Iberg Aug 21,2012
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Not Subway
NO EXCUSES -
For those who may know me... I am a super duper Subway Fan... but we have a friend that really likes Quizno's.
For the record - Quizno's is NOT Subway! or vice versa.
If you haven't guessed already Hubby and I went out for lunch with our friend today to Quizno's.
I never know what to order cause everything comes "with" and they don't like it when you change up so to me they don't have much selection.
Today, cause I hadn't done any homework before I left, I got my "safety" salad. A bowl of lettuce topped with mushrooms, green pepper, cucumbers,shredded cheese, and some roasted chicken. Well, when they "top" with the veggies you get very few. I mainly had a bowl of lettuce - even the chicken was skimpy- maybe 1-2 oz *sigh* nothing like homemade..... You can't even see over the counter at what they are doing! Its all stainless steel blocking the view! Our friend is 6'+ tall so I use him as my birds eye view LOL.
I added a tad of Ranch dressing but either way it had no real flavor so I bought a bag of baked lays (BBQ) for 3 pts.
Yeah, my lunch was not fulfilling at all - oh I am full but it wasn't too inspiring.
I am home drinking down my water and making plans for a wiener roast tonight.
I will make a nice salad, veggie tray, watermelon and go get me some low point wieners.
Next time I need to be prepared for Quizno's or be a little more persuading on going to Subway LOL
Eating is always a decision, nobody forces your hand to
pick up food and put it into your mouth.
Albert Ellis, Michael Abrams, Lidia
Dengelegi, The Art & Science of Rational Eating, 1992
For those who may know me... I am a super duper Subway Fan... but we have a friend that really likes Quizno's.
For the record - Quizno's is NOT Subway! or vice versa.
If you haven't guessed already Hubby and I went out for lunch with our friend today to Quizno's.
I never know what to order cause everything comes "with" and they don't like it when you change up so to me they don't have much selection.
Today, cause I hadn't done any homework before I left, I got my "safety" salad. A bowl of lettuce topped with mushrooms, green pepper, cucumbers,shredded cheese, and some roasted chicken. Well, when they "top" with the veggies you get very few. I mainly had a bowl of lettuce - even the chicken was skimpy- maybe 1-2 oz *sigh* nothing like homemade..... You can't even see over the counter at what they are doing! Its all stainless steel blocking the view! Our friend is 6'+ tall so I use him as my birds eye view LOL.
I added a tad of Ranch dressing but either way it had no real flavor so I bought a bag of baked lays (BBQ) for 3 pts.
Yeah, my lunch was not fulfilling at all - oh I am full but it wasn't too inspiring.
I am home drinking down my water and making plans for a wiener roast tonight.
I will make a nice salad, veggie tray, watermelon and go get me some low point wieners.
Next time I need to be prepared for Quizno's or be a little more persuading on going to Subway LOL
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Losing it
NO EXCUSES =
I am still on track... keeping track and drinking lots of water. Minimum 2 L a day. I try to drink one before lunch, one by dinner time and anything after that is bonus :)
I did have a problem today... My mom commented that it looked like I had lost weight. My comment back was "well the scale ain't reading that but thank you for the compliment!" (the compliment wasn't the problem!) LOL
Tonight when I was putting my sheep to bed, I went through my routine and came into the house. I got settled with my kitty cat on my lap when all of a sudden I realized I forgot to close a gate to one of the fields. I popped my cell phone in my back pocket, threw on my chore shoes and ran out to close the gate... hoping to beat the rams and alpaca's to the draw. I was hoping they were still eating their evening grain and hadn't noticed the gate was still open.
Well, this is where the problem came in...
While running out the door and across the yard to the first gate....
(I had to get through that gate to get to the one I needed to close)
... I found my skirt was rapidly falling down off my waist and sliding over my hips.
I couldn't stop cause I also noticed one of my rams decided to leave his grain and greet me... If he was going to greet me it could trigger the other 3 to greet me too! and possible the alpaca's. So it was a race. I got to the gate, quickly popped it open, closed it behind me and caught Mr. Black ram before he scooted through the main gate into the open field. Thankfully the others were far too interested in eating.
Yep, there's a picture for you... skirt halfway down to the ground, caught a rambunctious ram, reached and swung the gate closed. At this point I managed to shimmy my skirt back up where it was supposed to be sitting!
So I guess my Mother is right.. even though the scale isn't reading less I must be losing inches.
Yep I am losing it :)
Your goals, minus your doubts, equal your reality. Ralph Marston
I am still on track... keeping track and drinking lots of water. Minimum 2 L a day. I try to drink one before lunch, one by dinner time and anything after that is bonus :)
I did have a problem today... My mom commented that it looked like I had lost weight. My comment back was "well the scale ain't reading that but thank you for the compliment!" (the compliment wasn't the problem!) LOL
Tonight when I was putting my sheep to bed, I went through my routine and came into the house. I got settled with my kitty cat on my lap when all of a sudden I realized I forgot to close a gate to one of the fields. I popped my cell phone in my back pocket, threw on my chore shoes and ran out to close the gate... hoping to beat the rams and alpaca's to the draw. I was hoping they were still eating their evening grain and hadn't noticed the gate was still open.
Well, this is where the problem came in...
While running out the door and across the yard to the first gate....
(I had to get through that gate to get to the one I needed to close)
... I found my skirt was rapidly falling down off my waist and sliding over my hips.
I couldn't stop cause I also noticed one of my rams decided to leave his grain and greet me... If he was going to greet me it could trigger the other 3 to greet me too! and possible the alpaca's. So it was a race. I got to the gate, quickly popped it open, closed it behind me and caught Mr. Black ram before he scooted through the main gate into the open field. Thankfully the others were far too interested in eating.
Yep, there's a picture for you... skirt halfway down to the ground, caught a rambunctious ram, reached and swung the gate closed. At this point I managed to shimmy my skirt back up where it was supposed to be sitting!
So I guess my Mother is right.. even though the scale isn't reading less I must be losing inches.
Yep I am losing it :)
Your goals, minus your doubts, equal your reality. Ralph Marston
Friday, August 17, 2012
Is it just me?
I have been pondering today...
decided to go back to the WW website - why not? I pay for it I may as well use it.
I do use the App all the time but its very limited.
Didn't find any of my Farm girls there :( oh well...
As a Life timer I could get e-tools for free.... BUT... there is always a catch! You have to be at goal or within 2 lbs of goal weight to get it free. Well, I am not.
Working on it, but not there yet.
Anyway, that isn't what I have been pondering about.
I have about 30 pounds to lose. I went on the boards and I looked at some of the blogs but for me, most encouragement doesn't come from a gal struggling to lose 10 lbs (unless she has already been on this journey for some time and has lost lots of weight already). I get my BIGGEST encouragement from those gals and guys that have 100+ lbs to lose. I figure if they can do it, "I" can do it! It puts my issues in perspective... I "only" have 30 lbs to lose - they have way more. I understand when they say they can't look at the whole picture cause its overwhelming and they would get discouraged quickly. I get that! Heck I feel that way with only 30 lbs to lose! Well, it doesn't feel like "only" 30 lbs to me... but I get it!
At my last WW meeting a gal got an award for losing 6 lbs. Normally I clap and hurrah for the recipient. But when a chick stands up to receive it and if she turned sideways she would disappear... I wonder why she is even trying to lose weight. Now WW has a rule that you have to have at least 10 lbs to lose before you can join. I was trying to figure out where this gals 10 lbs was on her body to lose.
You see, I have a MIL like that. She will pat her thighs or butt and say "oh, I gotta do something about this 5 lbs I gained"................ My MIL is a stick! seriously she is a stick! The size of a Broom handle, shovel handle - what ever you want to call it. Every time she says that my eyes get big and my eyebrows raise... what I wouldn't give to have only 5 lbs to worry about. (If my MIL is reading this... no offence ;)
One could call it jealousy - it has been my choices that got me to the place I am at now. Then again, sometimes I feel that being skinny comes easy to some. Its their make-up. Although my grandmother on my fathers side was relatively thin... I don't know about my mom's side as her dearest mother passed when my mom was 3 years old. From the pictures I saw of her though she looked pretty good!
I don't know, maybe I just worry about all this too much. I have to admit when I am reading articles and they are saying do this and don't do that or eat this but not that... then the next month it all changes - I have come to the conclusion that it is all marketing ploy - eat healthy, drink lots of water and it will all fall into place - or fall of the place ;)
I have to admit I did watch that show Supersize Me this guy only made a pig of himself and did not "chose" to eat healthy. I am not an advocate for McDonald's but I do firmly believe that if you ate there all the time they have improved their menu where you can eat very healthy - I can't speak for the USA but I certainly can for Canada. Why didn't it show him eating fruit n yogurt parfaits? They have apple slices... salads... and McD's very kindly puts the "additives" in separate packages so you have a choice whether you want to add it or not. AND you can now fill your own beverage so why not fill it with ice then put in the beverage - that's what I do. Oh and McD's sell water too - so you don't have to have pop or juice. Yes, I firmly believe Supersize me was a hoax.
Which brings me to the next documentary I have watched and I thought was awesome! It blew Supersize me right out of the water and had a lot of truth to it! The show is called Fathead and I highly recommend you watch it. If you have Netflix its on there. Or I also believe the whole thing on www.youtube.com
I don't know if I can say I have strayed off topic... I did say I was pondering.. sorry if my mind did too much wondering.
Be careful about reading health books. You may die of a misprint. - Mark Twain
decided to go back to the WW website - why not? I pay for it I may as well use it.
I do use the App all the time but its very limited.
Didn't find any of my Farm girls there :( oh well...
As a Life timer I could get e-tools for free.... BUT... there is always a catch! You have to be at goal or within 2 lbs of goal weight to get it free. Well, I am not.
Working on it, but not there yet.
Anyway, that isn't what I have been pondering about.
I have about 30 pounds to lose. I went on the boards and I looked at some of the blogs but for me, most encouragement doesn't come from a gal struggling to lose 10 lbs (unless she has already been on this journey for some time and has lost lots of weight already). I get my BIGGEST encouragement from those gals and guys that have 100+ lbs to lose. I figure if they can do it, "I" can do it! It puts my issues in perspective... I "only" have 30 lbs to lose - they have way more. I understand when they say they can't look at the whole picture cause its overwhelming and they would get discouraged quickly. I get that! Heck I feel that way with only 30 lbs to lose! Well, it doesn't feel like "only" 30 lbs to me... but I get it!
At my last WW meeting a gal got an award for losing 6 lbs. Normally I clap and hurrah for the recipient. But when a chick stands up to receive it and if she turned sideways she would disappear... I wonder why she is even trying to lose weight. Now WW has a rule that you have to have at least 10 lbs to lose before you can join. I was trying to figure out where this gals 10 lbs was on her body to lose.
You see, I have a MIL like that. She will pat her thighs or butt and say "oh, I gotta do something about this 5 lbs I gained"................ My MIL is a stick! seriously she is a stick! The size of a Broom handle, shovel handle - what ever you want to call it. Every time she says that my eyes get big and my eyebrows raise... what I wouldn't give to have only 5 lbs to worry about. (If my MIL is reading this... no offence ;)
One could call it jealousy - it has been my choices that got me to the place I am at now. Then again, sometimes I feel that being skinny comes easy to some. Its their make-up. Although my grandmother on my fathers side was relatively thin... I don't know about my mom's side as her dearest mother passed when my mom was 3 years old. From the pictures I saw of her though she looked pretty good!
I don't know, maybe I just worry about all this too much. I have to admit when I am reading articles and they are saying do this and don't do that or eat this but not that... then the next month it all changes - I have come to the conclusion that it is all marketing ploy - eat healthy, drink lots of water and it will all fall into place - or fall of the place ;)
I have to admit I did watch that show Supersize Me this guy only made a pig of himself and did not "chose" to eat healthy. I am not an advocate for McDonald's but I do firmly believe that if you ate there all the time they have improved their menu where you can eat very healthy - I can't speak for the USA but I certainly can for Canada. Why didn't it show him eating fruit n yogurt parfaits? They have apple slices... salads... and McD's very kindly puts the "additives" in separate packages so you have a choice whether you want to add it or not. AND you can now fill your own beverage so why not fill it with ice then put in the beverage - that's what I do. Oh and McD's sell water too - so you don't have to have pop or juice. Yes, I firmly believe Supersize me was a hoax.
Which brings me to the next documentary I have watched and I thought was awesome! It blew Supersize me right out of the water and had a lot of truth to it! The show is called Fathead and I highly recommend you watch it. If you have Netflix its on there. Or I also believe the whole thing on www.youtube.com
I don't know if I can say I have strayed off topic... I did say I was pondering.. sorry if my mind did too much wondering.
Be careful about reading health books. You may die of a misprint. - Mark Twain
Water Logged
NO EXCUSES -
I have been drinking A LOT of water lately. At LEAST 2 or more Litres a day. Way up from what I drank when I wasn't on the wagon. But.... Um, whats going in, ain't coming out.
It has been very hot here and I don't do too well in the heat. I got sun stroke really bad a few years ago and since then heat and I don't agree too much. I have been a BIG puff ball - swollen face and hands. This morning when I stepped on the scale I was 2 lbs heavier than the day before.
It is supposed to start cooling down in a couple of days. Hopefully my body recuperates and I see a difference on the scale. Either that or my cells are needing the extra moisture and repairing themselves. :) One can only hope.
Did really well this morning - got up on time, did my stretches, made and ate my breakfast before heading out to the barn to do chores. For anyone who knows me that is a HUGE feat! Before I would have totally skipped out on both and ate at around 11am when I got back in from the barn... then binge ate the rest of the day and not bothered with my stretches.
Well, the day isn't over - I have work to do so I better get at it.
I have been drinking A LOT of water lately. At LEAST 2 or more Litres a day. Way up from what I drank when I wasn't on the wagon. But.... Um, whats going in, ain't coming out.
It has been very hot here and I don't do too well in the heat. I got sun stroke really bad a few years ago and since then heat and I don't agree too much. I have been a BIG puff ball - swollen face and hands. This morning when I stepped on the scale I was 2 lbs heavier than the day before.
It is supposed to start cooling down in a couple of days. Hopefully my body recuperates and I see a difference on the scale. Either that or my cells are needing the extra moisture and repairing themselves. :) One can only hope.
Did really well this morning - got up on time, did my stretches, made and ate my breakfast before heading out to the barn to do chores. For anyone who knows me that is a HUGE feat! Before I would have totally skipped out on both and ate at around 11am when I got back in from the barn... then binge ate the rest of the day and not bothered with my stretches.
Well, the day isn't over - I have work to do so I better get at it.
Water is life's mater and matrix, mother and medium. There is no life without water.
by Albert Szent-Gyorgyi
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Repeat
NO EXCUSES -
Well, this morning did not go as planned. I had a rough night ...
I had made this awesome Greek salad:
cucumbers, green pepper, tomato, red onion, Greek seasoning and 1/4 cup of shredded feta cheese.
It was SO good! I had 3 helpings :) But found out later that was not such a great idea!
Um I never thought it would go straight through me!
Yep, I was up all night running to the bathroom - on top of it I had drank 3.5 L of water throughout the day and that wasn't helping me sleep either! You see my body swells up when its hot and doesn't "let go" til it cools down. Well it was 35 degrees Celsius and very warm ... and at night it cools down; as does my body... and then its - well you get the idea.
So... come morning my grand idea of getting up early and doing stretches, getting breakfast and cleaning some bathrooms before 8am... kind of went by the way side. Cause once I settled I slept til 8am. I don't normally set my alarm cause I wake at 4:30am to my hubby's and when I stay in bed I am always awake by 7am or sooner. Well, this morning I wasn't.
At 8am I got up, let my sheep out, chatted with hubby while I made and ate my breakfast in my jammies. Once he was out the door (around 9am) I could have easily gone upstairs, got dressed and started my day doing other things other than my stretches... instead I MADE myself turn on that DVD. Then I did the other stuff I had to do today.
I do pay attention to Fly Lady. Anyone who doesn't know about her can click here ... Fly Lady . One of her main topics is "time". How long does it take to do something? She gives 15 minutes - just take 15 minutes and it is amazing what you can get accomplished in that short amount of time. Some jobs, including exercise, appear huge jobs to me and I don't do them because of perfectionism. If I can't do it perfect then I don't do it. Well... If I do stretches for 15 minutes instead of 30 or an hour... at least I have done something! My body thanks me for it.
The same goes for making my breakfast... how many times (oh boy another truth) have I gone on my computer for 15 or more minutes and not thought anything of it?
Time Management - organization - flexibility... all things I used to do and have fallen away from - partly due to burn out. Now I am starting to crave structure again. I am slowly working myself into a structured (not perfect) day - and loving it.
Its getting late... and part of weight loss is getting a good sleep - so here's to another pretty good day!
Well, this morning did not go as planned. I had a rough night ...
I had made this awesome Greek salad:
cucumbers, green pepper, tomato, red onion, Greek seasoning and 1/4 cup of shredded feta cheese.
It was SO good! I had 3 helpings :) But found out later that was not such a great idea!
Um I never thought it would go straight through me!
Yep, I was up all night running to the bathroom - on top of it I had drank 3.5 L of water throughout the day and that wasn't helping me sleep either! You see my body swells up when its hot and doesn't "let go" til it cools down. Well it was 35 degrees Celsius and very warm ... and at night it cools down; as does my body... and then its - well you get the idea.
So... come morning my grand idea of getting up early and doing stretches, getting breakfast and cleaning some bathrooms before 8am... kind of went by the way side. Cause once I settled I slept til 8am. I don't normally set my alarm cause I wake at 4:30am to my hubby's and when I stay in bed I am always awake by 7am or sooner. Well, this morning I wasn't.
At 8am I got up, let my sheep out, chatted with hubby while I made and ate my breakfast in my jammies. Once he was out the door (around 9am) I could have easily gone upstairs, got dressed and started my day doing other things other than my stretches... instead I MADE myself turn on that DVD. Then I did the other stuff I had to do today.
I do pay attention to Fly Lady. Anyone who doesn't know about her can click here ... Fly Lady . One of her main topics is "time". How long does it take to do something? She gives 15 minutes - just take 15 minutes and it is amazing what you can get accomplished in that short amount of time. Some jobs, including exercise, appear huge jobs to me and I don't do them because of perfectionism. If I can't do it perfect then I don't do it. Well... If I do stretches for 15 minutes instead of 30 or an hour... at least I have done something! My body thanks me for it.
The same goes for making my breakfast... how many times (oh boy another truth) have I gone on my computer for 15 or more minutes and not thought anything of it?
Time Management - organization - flexibility... all things I used to do and have fallen away from - partly due to burn out. Now I am starting to crave structure again. I am slowly working myself into a structured (not perfect) day - and loving it.
Its getting late... and part of weight loss is getting a good sleep - so here's to another pretty good day!
You will never "find" time for
anything. If you want time, you must make it.
Charles Bruxton
Charles Bruxton
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Scheduling
NO EXCUSES -
Well today I have stayed on track.
I was quite proud of myself this morning.
I was awake at 6:30am... got up at 7am (as soon as my cats know I am awake they pile on top of me; sometimes they don't wait til I am awake! Hence the getting up 1/2 hour later)
I decided last night that I needed to start doing "some" form of exercise and right now it is 32-35 degrees Celsius every day. I also prefer to "exercise" alone and not have on lookers - the best time to do this is in the morning when its cool, Hubby is in the barn and son is still in bed ;)
I quickly grabbed my house coat, slipped on my shoes and ran out to my sheep shed - ---
HAHA no this is not my exercise! I opened the gates for my sheep and alpacas to go out into the pasture.
Back into the house I went... upstairs to my room and dusted off the TV and DVD/Video player *cough-cough* yeah it was dusty!
Two weeks ago WW had their exercise DVDs on sale - I purchased the set - meanwhile asking myself why I purchase exercise DVDs when I don't usually use them.
Problem... I couldn't find the DVD! Off to search... hmmm, couldn't find it in all the "usual" places... eventually found it in my "to do" pile on my desk HAHAHA Well, I guess it was next on the list of to do's.
I popped in the DVD - hit start and... "SNOW"... hmmm, changed channel, 03 or 04? oh wait HA DVD machine was not plugged in to TV! hmmm, still snow.... ummm, oh crumb I have forgotten how to use this crazy machine. Oh wait! TV has a "set up" button... I have plugged machine into the front of the TV and it helps when the TV is set on FRONT.
Wallah! We now have a picture!
I don't remember how long I "stretched" for (15 to 20 minutes?)- I put it on beginner stretching. WOW are my muscles TIGHT. Can 't believe that (years) ago I used to be a gymnast and a figure skater! Such shame!
With that done - I had a nice shower - it was starting to get hot in the house already so I closed all the windows and blinds. Skipped down stairs (that is skipped, not tripped) to the kitchen and started to make my breakfast. YES I made breakfast! a healthy one at that! I cut up a peach, toasted a piece of bread and boiled an egg. I put them all in a lunch bag; filled my 1L water bottle and headed out the door to WW. Oh I think I missed a very important step here... I DID get dressed! No I did not go skipping down the stairs and make breakfast in the kitchen in the nude! Although there are times when I wish I could weigh in the nude! But that only backfires later.
Due to the fact that I only set my mind to this getting back on track yesterday morning I was quite surprised when I actually stepped on the scale and had lost 0.2lbs. Now to some of you that may seem like nothing. Really it is very little... BUT... I take whatever I can. At least it wasn't UP 0.2.
I was VERY happy and I wasn't going to let anything spoil it.
I sat through the meeting... I do love the meetings.. (P.S. I eat my breakfast, along with others, during or after the meeting)...we have an awesome leader that is very down to earth.... BUT there is one thing that REALLY bugs me! She does a lot of cross border shopping (Meaning shopping in the USA) I am a stickler for keeping my money at home and supporting Canadian businesses. She shops so much down in the States that she can't even tell you where to buy certain items up here. So I am thinking I need to start shopping around and bring items to the meeting from CANADA to show members that you can get just as good, actually BETTER products in Canada. Don't get me started on Dairy products... I know the regulations in the States and I know the VERY STRICT regulations in Canada. Hence why people have to go to the States for some products that are not allowed to be sold in Canada... they don't pass the Strict Canadian Health regulations.
Okay, I will stop now cause that is one hot subject for me.
Wednesdays are ME days. I decided when I rejoined WW several years ago that I was not going to leave again - so through ups and downs, thick and thin I have continued going. I chose Wednesdays as my WI day and I don't miss them unless I have a darn good excuse - but as my title said yesterday any excuse isn't going to work anymore! Anyway, my ME day consists of WI and reflexology. After my WI I go to a reflexologist and relax for an hour and a half. She is a great therapist as we can talk about anything - we are very much on the same wave length and it has been great for my health.
After reflex... I call my hubby and find out "whats happening" or "whats the plan". 99% of the time I end up at Subway and purchase our lunch.
Today was a Sub day :) I LOVE Baked Lay's (BBQ) and I get a turkey on wheat with LOADS of veggies! um, *cough cough* yes I usually get a foot long that is 14 points.... But I count it in. The foot long thing is a habit but I have always fit it in so I am not worried too much about it.
I have 3 points left for dinner which will probably consist of a salad sprinkled with chicken. Being a hot day I don't feel like eating too much in the evening anyway. I am on my 2nd Litre of water and will be on my 3rd by dinner I am sure.
HA I guess I should really mention something about my topic! Scheduling... I am slowly going to start scheduling things in to make them a habit.
Begin Schedule list:
Once I get those 2 scheduled events becoming a habit the next item I will add is menu planning... that's a BIG one for me cause it has been YEARS since I have done that!
Phew! I was long winded! I am off and away to get feed for my sheep and alpaca's. Oh and I need kitty litter and litterbox pan liners
Mark Twain: Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time.
Well today I have stayed on track.
I was quite proud of myself this morning.
I was awake at 6:30am... got up at 7am (as soon as my cats know I am awake they pile on top of me; sometimes they don't wait til I am awake! Hence the getting up 1/2 hour later)
I decided last night that I needed to start doing "some" form of exercise and right now it is 32-35 degrees Celsius every day. I also prefer to "exercise" alone and not have on lookers - the best time to do this is in the morning when its cool, Hubby is in the barn and son is still in bed ;)
I quickly grabbed my house coat, slipped on my shoes and ran out to my sheep shed - ---
HAHA no this is not my exercise! I opened the gates for my sheep and alpacas to go out into the pasture.
Back into the house I went... upstairs to my room and dusted off the TV and DVD/Video player *cough-cough* yeah it was dusty!
Two weeks ago WW had their exercise DVDs on sale - I purchased the set - meanwhile asking myself why I purchase exercise DVDs when I don't usually use them.
Problem... I couldn't find the DVD! Off to search... hmmm, couldn't find it in all the "usual" places... eventually found it in my "to do" pile on my desk HAHAHA Well, I guess it was next on the list of to do's.
I popped in the DVD - hit start and... "SNOW"... hmmm, changed channel, 03 or 04? oh wait HA DVD machine was not plugged in to TV! hmmm, still snow.... ummm, oh crumb I have forgotten how to use this crazy machine. Oh wait! TV has a "set up" button... I have plugged machine into the front of the TV and it helps when the TV is set on FRONT.
Wallah! We now have a picture!
I don't remember how long I "stretched" for (15 to 20 minutes?)- I put it on beginner stretching. WOW are my muscles TIGHT. Can 't believe that (years) ago I used to be a gymnast and a figure skater! Such shame!
With that done - I had a nice shower - it was starting to get hot in the house already so I closed all the windows and blinds. Skipped down stairs (that is skipped, not tripped) to the kitchen and started to make my breakfast. YES I made breakfast! a healthy one at that! I cut up a peach, toasted a piece of bread and boiled an egg. I put them all in a lunch bag; filled my 1L water bottle and headed out the door to WW. Oh I think I missed a very important step here... I DID get dressed! No I did not go skipping down the stairs and make breakfast in the kitchen in the nude! Although there are times when I wish I could weigh in the nude! But that only backfires later.
Due to the fact that I only set my mind to this getting back on track yesterday morning I was quite surprised when I actually stepped on the scale and had lost 0.2lbs. Now to some of you that may seem like nothing. Really it is very little... BUT... I take whatever I can. At least it wasn't UP 0.2.
I was VERY happy and I wasn't going to let anything spoil it.
I sat through the meeting... I do love the meetings.. (P.S. I eat my breakfast, along with others, during or after the meeting)...we have an awesome leader that is very down to earth.... BUT there is one thing that REALLY bugs me! She does a lot of cross border shopping (Meaning shopping in the USA) I am a stickler for keeping my money at home and supporting Canadian businesses. She shops so much down in the States that she can't even tell you where to buy certain items up here. So I am thinking I need to start shopping around and bring items to the meeting from CANADA to show members that you can get just as good, actually BETTER products in Canada. Don't get me started on Dairy products... I know the regulations in the States and I know the VERY STRICT regulations in Canada. Hence why people have to go to the States for some products that are not allowed to be sold in Canada... they don't pass the Strict Canadian Health regulations.
Okay, I will stop now cause that is one hot subject for me.
Wednesdays are ME days. I decided when I rejoined WW several years ago that I was not going to leave again - so through ups and downs, thick and thin I have continued going. I chose Wednesdays as my WI day and I don't miss them unless I have a darn good excuse - but as my title said yesterday any excuse isn't going to work anymore! Anyway, my ME day consists of WI and reflexology. After my WI I go to a reflexologist and relax for an hour and a half. She is a great therapist as we can talk about anything - we are very much on the same wave length and it has been great for my health.
After reflex... I call my hubby and find out "whats happening" or "whats the plan". 99% of the time I end up at Subway and purchase our lunch.
Today was a Sub day :) I LOVE Baked Lay's (BBQ) and I get a turkey on wheat with LOADS of veggies! um, *cough cough* yes I usually get a foot long that is 14 points.... But I count it in. The foot long thing is a habit but I have always fit it in so I am not worried too much about it.
I have 3 points left for dinner which will probably consist of a salad sprinkled with chicken. Being a hot day I don't feel like eating too much in the evening anyway. I am on my 2nd Litre of water and will be on my 3rd by dinner I am sure.
HA I guess I should really mention something about my topic! Scheduling... I am slowly going to start scheduling things in to make them a habit.
Begin Schedule list:
- when I get up I will do my exercise DVD
- I will make a healthy breakfast and eat it.
Once I get those 2 scheduled events becoming a habit the next item I will add is menu planning... that's a BIG one for me cause it has been YEARS since I have done that!
Phew! I was long winded! I am off and away to get feed for my sheep and alpaca's. Oh and I need kitty litter and litterbox pan liners
Mark Twain: Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
NO EXCUSES
I am going to tell myself that EVERY day!
I am back "on" again... At the beginning of summer we had to fill out a paper at the WW meeting and set a goal... I had completely forgotten about that until yesterday!
My goal was to lose 10 lbs by September - Well, if I don't get my butt in gear that goal will go down the tube like all the other goals I have set.
Time to break the cycle.
I have not told my "family" that I am back on track. I have not made any conversation at all about eating or drinking, how much and what kind...
I am going to quietly go about my day, counting, tracking, drinking (water) ... eventually I will throw exercise in there - and see if anyone notices... or how long it takes them to notice.
There is enough junk food in this house to sink a ship but I haven't been eating it over the past 2 days... my hubby doesn't need to be eating it either but he is.
My FIL came by today with fresh veggies from his garden... I popped them in the fridge and will start chowing down on them.
I have 2 friends whom both carry the same name and live in 2 different provinces of Canada... but they support and encourage me no matter how frumpy and dumpy I get about this journey. They are both an inspiration and its because of them that I have picked up my sorry self, threw me back on the wagon and decided this journey is worth travelling again.
For all my other friends... you too are an inspiration and every little bit counts! I love the comments to know I am not alone... and others believe in me when I don't.
I was watching a show the other day and the gal was trying to lose lots of weight... when she never made her goal she had loads of excuses... I was getting frustrated watching her speak excuse after excuse of "why not". It dawned on me that that was ME. As much as I HATE to admit that, seriously, I hate admitting I have loads of excuses - so many so that I will make excuses for my excuses.
Now that I have my pain under control I should be able to push myself a little more (in the exercise department) and find the will power to say NO and throw out the Lazy's when it comes to meal preparation.
Tomorrow is WI - I didn't go last week... but I intend to go tomorrow... until then.
I am back "on" again... At the beginning of summer we had to fill out a paper at the WW meeting and set a goal... I had completely forgotten about that until yesterday!
My goal was to lose 10 lbs by September - Well, if I don't get my butt in gear that goal will go down the tube like all the other goals I have set.
Time to break the cycle.
I have not told my "family" that I am back on track. I have not made any conversation at all about eating or drinking, how much and what kind...
I am going to quietly go about my day, counting, tracking, drinking (water) ... eventually I will throw exercise in there - and see if anyone notices... or how long it takes them to notice.
There is enough junk food in this house to sink a ship but I haven't been eating it over the past 2 days... my hubby doesn't need to be eating it either but he is.
My FIL came by today with fresh veggies from his garden... I popped them in the fridge and will start chowing down on them.
I have 2 friends whom both carry the same name and live in 2 different provinces of Canada... but they support and encourage me no matter how frumpy and dumpy I get about this journey. They are both an inspiration and its because of them that I have picked up my sorry self, threw me back on the wagon and decided this journey is worth travelling again.
For all my other friends... you too are an inspiration and every little bit counts! I love the comments to know I am not alone... and others believe in me when I don't.
I was watching a show the other day and the gal was trying to lose lots of weight... when she never made her goal she had loads of excuses... I was getting frustrated watching her speak excuse after excuse of "why not". It dawned on me that that was ME. As much as I HATE to admit that, seriously, I hate admitting I have loads of excuses - so many so that I will make excuses for my excuses.
Now that I have my pain under control I should be able to push myself a little more (in the exercise department) and find the will power to say NO and throw out the Lazy's when it comes to meal preparation.
Tomorrow is WI - I didn't go last week... but I intend to go tomorrow... until then.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Back from a Cruise
My hubby and I went on an Alaskan Cruise with my cousins... we were both celebrating our 25th Wedding Anniversaries. My cousins were in July and ours is coming up in February/13.
We all wanted to go to Alaska and cruises don't run in February... thank goodness! So after a bit of convincing to my hubby (summer is the busiest time on the farm!) we got away for a week.
Cruise, hmmm, yes there was FOOD. Lots of it. I enjoyed myself but was careful. I didn't track though but mentally kept it in my head. I drank lots of water and we walked and walked and walked and walked and walked.......................................... and walked.... we averaged 20,000 steps a day.
When we first got there I was worried cause I was having a lot of pain down my legs from my back. My knee was giving me issues too and so were my feet. We heard there was an acupuncturist on the cruise and we went to an info session.
I am sure I paid way more than I would off ship but I did 3 sessions with him over 6 days... it was amazing. After the first treatment i didn't notice anything until 2 days later then all was pretty good! Touring around, walking, climbing (other than the fact that I am out of shape!) was great! I would recommend acupuncture to anyone! I even stopped taking my pain and anti-inflammatory meds the last 3 days. Even now that I am home I don't have the pain that I can get - its leaves me exhausted and unable to do much.
That pain medication gives me acid reflux - I already get that and had it under control from watching what I eat and when... but with this med I get it all the time no matter what I try. So I try to do alternative things so I don't have to take it.
With that said... we came home and joked with each other on how much we gained. Hubby gained 3-4 lbs; My cousin 4-5lbs, her hubby refuses to tell; and I gained 2.5 lbs. I was ecstatic! I gained less than anyone! Normally I am the one that packs it on ...
I have already lost a pound of that "gained".
Wednesday is WI and I hope to be down some more by then.
Cheers!
We all wanted to go to Alaska and cruises don't run in February... thank goodness! So after a bit of convincing to my hubby (summer is the busiest time on the farm!) we got away for a week.
Cruise, hmmm, yes there was FOOD. Lots of it. I enjoyed myself but was careful. I didn't track though but mentally kept it in my head. I drank lots of water and we walked and walked and walked and walked and walked.......................................... and walked.... we averaged 20,000 steps a day.
When we first got there I was worried cause I was having a lot of pain down my legs from my back. My knee was giving me issues too and so were my feet. We heard there was an acupuncturist on the cruise and we went to an info session.
I am sure I paid way more than I would off ship but I did 3 sessions with him over 6 days... it was amazing. After the first treatment i didn't notice anything until 2 days later then all was pretty good! Touring around, walking, climbing (other than the fact that I am out of shape!) was great! I would recommend acupuncture to anyone! I even stopped taking my pain and anti-inflammatory meds the last 3 days. Even now that I am home I don't have the pain that I can get - its leaves me exhausted and unable to do much.
That pain medication gives me acid reflux - I already get that and had it under control from watching what I eat and when... but with this med I get it all the time no matter what I try. So I try to do alternative things so I don't have to take it.
With that said... we came home and joked with each other on how much we gained. Hubby gained 3-4 lbs; My cousin 4-5lbs, her hubby refuses to tell; and I gained 2.5 lbs. I was ecstatic! I gained less than anyone! Normally I am the one that packs it on ...
I have already lost a pound of that "gained".
Wednesday is WI and I hope to be down some more by then.
Cheers!
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Nearing the end
Well, I was all gung ho 7 weeks ago to take off 10 lbs... it never happened... I am actually heavier than I was when I started... I am SO not surprised.
I have had major highs and lows (emotions) over this time and finally bit the bullet yesterday and bought some clothes that fit me... yep fat clothes.
I am thinking I should listen to my hubby next time he says "should you be getting rid of those?" I took offense when he said that but he is right... he is always right.
I did write down on a card at WW that I would lose 10 lbs by the end of summer... they will be checking on us to see if we kept our word on our goal sheet. Every one's goal is different - mine just so happened to be losing some weight.
This morning I woke up and decided to TRY and stay on program... I tracked my breakfast... but now I am struggling to figure out what I am going to make for lunch *sigh* I want easy - grab and go - but that is impossible if you want to eat healthy.
I even went on pinterest and looked up healthy stuff... yoga stretching, toning, eating healthy etc.. I am great at reading just not doing.
Addicted? Lazy? I guess that is why I am here, at this stage AGAIN.
I have many things I should be doing - but I avoid - I have become the "lady of avoidance".
Its starting to tick me off and yet I am still not doing anything about it.
That goes for all things not just eating and exercise. I have no structure... I know what it is like to be burned out and I don't want to be there again - I have swung the pendulum the other way and I don't like it so much anymore but I can't seem to stop the spiral slope.
Well, hubby is waiting for me to bring his lunch to the field shortly so I better get this butt of mine in gear... at least I will get one thing done today.
I have had major highs and lows (emotions) over this time and finally bit the bullet yesterday and bought some clothes that fit me... yep fat clothes.
I am thinking I should listen to my hubby next time he says "should you be getting rid of those?" I took offense when he said that but he is right... he is always right.
I did write down on a card at WW that I would lose 10 lbs by the end of summer... they will be checking on us to see if we kept our word on our goal sheet. Every one's goal is different - mine just so happened to be losing some weight.
This morning I woke up and decided to TRY and stay on program... I tracked my breakfast... but now I am struggling to figure out what I am going to make for lunch *sigh* I want easy - grab and go - but that is impossible if you want to eat healthy.
I even went on pinterest and looked up healthy stuff... yoga stretching, toning, eating healthy etc.. I am great at reading just not doing.
Addicted? Lazy? I guess that is why I am here, at this stage AGAIN.
I have many things I should be doing - but I avoid - I have become the "lady of avoidance".
Its starting to tick me off and yet I am still not doing anything about it.
That goes for all things not just eating and exercise. I have no structure... I know what it is like to be burned out and I don't want to be there again - I have swung the pendulum the other way and I don't like it so much anymore but I can't seem to stop the spiral slope.
Well, hubby is waiting for me to bring his lunch to the field shortly so I better get this butt of mine in gear... at least I will get one thing done today.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Question answered
I figured it out...
I am seeing a new doctor that is in the same office.... I have been requesting her for a while now when I had a problem (which wasn't very often due to my distrust and it seemed every appointment confirmed my feeling of them being negligent)... well when I made my appointment for my PAP some time ago (last May) they were going to book me in to my old doctor. I said "no, I am seeing this gal". They told me they had me listed as "his" patient, not "hers". I requested to be moved.
My request was accepted.
Now, ironically, she is really really helping me now and I am getting my trust back.
I think... that because I was listed as "his" patient she felt her hands were tied in helping me. I was thinking long term and she was thinking short term.
Now that we are clarified she is diving deeper and listening well.
The diagnosis is going down a different path than I expected but its all making sense...
I hope to be back on track in no time.
By being on track... that has many meanings...
I travel many tracks that ride side by side
Health:
Diet:
Exercise
Today I saw a picture of an 86 year old woman doing gymnastics and she was in the seniors Olympics in Germany... If she can do it why can't I! I used to do gymnastics.... time to limber up LOL
If this doesn't inspire me I don't know what will!!!
If you don't believe me... here she is
I am seeing a new doctor that is in the same office.... I have been requesting her for a while now when I had a problem (which wasn't very often due to my distrust and it seemed every appointment confirmed my feeling of them being negligent)... well when I made my appointment for my PAP some time ago (last May) they were going to book me in to my old doctor. I said "no, I am seeing this gal". They told me they had me listed as "his" patient, not "hers". I requested to be moved.
My request was accepted.
Now, ironically, she is really really helping me now and I am getting my trust back.
I think... that because I was listed as "his" patient she felt her hands were tied in helping me. I was thinking long term and she was thinking short term.
Now that we are clarified she is diving deeper and listening well.
The diagnosis is going down a different path than I expected but its all making sense...
I hope to be back on track in no time.
By being on track... that has many meanings...
I travel many tracks that ride side by side
Health:
Diet:
Exercise
Today I saw a picture of an 86 year old woman doing gymnastics and she was in the seniors Olympics in Germany... If she can do it why can't I! I used to do gymnastics.... time to limber up LOL
If this doesn't inspire me I don't know what will!!!
If you don't believe me... here she is
86 YEARS OLD
– Johanna Quaas is a true inspiration to all of us as she is spending her days tumbling, spinning and twirling on the gym floor and on the parallel bars no less!
Just recently, Cottbus, Germany hosted the 2012 Cottbus World Cup where Quaas performed her exhibition routine on the floor and on the parallel bars. Although the 86 year old has won 11 medals in senior gymnastics competitions, she ultimately just continues to practice “for fun.”
We doubt that this lovely white-haired athlete sat around at home watching TV all day when she was younger. In fact, in 1954, Quaas was a member of the handball team that took the Eastern German Championship! Today, she continues to astonish audiences in events across the globe.
Stories like these that make us feel like we should detach ourselves from our computer screens and go outside and do some push ups or something!See More
– Johanna Quaas is a true inspiration to all of us as she is spending her days tumbling, spinning and twirling on the gym floor and on the parallel bars no less!
Just recently, Cottbus, Germany hosted the 2012 Cottbus World Cup where Quaas performed her exhibition routine on the floor and on the parallel bars. Although the 86 year old has won 11 medals in senior gymnastics competitions, she ultimately just continues to practice “for fun.”
We doubt that this lovely white-haired athlete sat around at home watching TV all day when she was younger. In fact, in 1954, Quaas was a member of the handball team that took the Eastern German Championship! Today, she continues to astonish audiences in events across the globe.
Stories like these that make us feel like we should detach ourselves from our computer screens and go outside and do some push ups or something!See More
— with Kinesis Gym and Fatima Alejandra Gamietea Cortes.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
New Medical Journey
I don't know if any of you know of my issues with doctors... and trying to find answers to some of my health problems...
well, I had as much as given up on any doctor helping me and decided to take matters in my own hands... and do nothing.
but a routine PAP kinda changed all that.
its not much but on May 7th I was scheduled for my usual wonderful womanly PAP. I see a female Dr in the office for that (managed to get them to put me with her permanently at this visit :)
My plan was to get the PAP and get out.... Well, she got asking me questions and somehow it turned into a physical.
She sent me for some blood work - a panel of things... Well, I kept putting off going for a followup appt - figured I'd get the same story... everything is normal.
Yesterday (July 4th), my daughter Katie text ed me and said she was making an appt at the Dr's. (she sees the same gal) well that reminded me to make the appt for myself. It was a miracle... I actually got in the same day as they had a cancellation.
I was still in my PJ's so I had to hustle as the appt was for 9:35 am and it was 9:05am... takes 10 minutes to get there (with my driving ;). I wasn't as prepared as I would like cause I was totally expecting to be given an appt next week.
I got there and had some waiting to do... Once she arrived in the room it was a near instant... Yes, my blood work from May 7th was all "within the normal range" some low normal and some high normal but within the normal. OK so that was the "normal" response I expected....
Now I have been having issues with my back, neck, low back and severe pain down my legs and muscle weakness in arms and legs etc... I have been putting up with it but it has become a major issue when I go out on the town with hubby or shopping with my daughters and I get in so much pain I want to cry or sleep.
So I brought this up to her...
She sent me for blood work and xrays.
She called me today (July 5)..
diagnosis: Spondylosis (main issue), possible Colitis, Plantar fasciitis and she named a few more things off... She told me she thinks there are more things going on that would cause all this and would like to slowly look into it all.
First she is sending me to a specialist to do with the spondylosis.... my back is fusing itself together from degeneration and pinching nerves and muscles - that is the
root of my arm, leg, back pain & muscle weakness.
She is putting me on strong anti-inflammatory to help - and she wants me to lose weight and sign up for yoga or Pilate's! hahahahahahaha
Maybe I will actually figure out what is causing the pain under my ribs.... been 4 years now since I originally went to a doctor about it.
I don't want to get my hopes up... but she appears to genuinely want to help me... so I will go along with it
I am a bit puzzled tho... when she (Dr) was checking me over she asked if I shaved my legs... I said "yes, but I can't remember the last time I did as I have next to no hair (only a patch around my knee cap that gets a little "dark"), must be the Norwegian in me. " she said "hmm" but she wouldn't elaborate. so what is THAT supposed to mean? LOL
P.S. I didn't go to WW and WI cause I got the Dr's appt at the same time and thought one was more important than the other .... will go next wednesday :)
well, I had as much as given up on any doctor helping me and decided to take matters in my own hands... and do nothing.
but a routine PAP kinda changed all that.
its not much but on May 7th I was scheduled for my usual wonderful womanly PAP. I see a female Dr in the office for that (managed to get them to put me with her permanently at this visit :)
My plan was to get the PAP and get out.... Well, she got asking me questions and somehow it turned into a physical.
She sent me for some blood work - a panel of things... Well, I kept putting off going for a followup appt - figured I'd get the same story... everything is normal.
Yesterday (July 4th), my daughter Katie text ed me and said she was making an appt at the Dr's. (she sees the same gal) well that reminded me to make the appt for myself. It was a miracle... I actually got in the same day as they had a cancellation.
I was still in my PJ's so I had to hustle as the appt was for 9:35 am and it was 9:05am... takes 10 minutes to get there (with my driving ;). I wasn't as prepared as I would like cause I was totally expecting to be given an appt next week.
I got there and had some waiting to do... Once she arrived in the room it was a near instant... Yes, my blood work from May 7th was all "within the normal range" some low normal and some high normal but within the normal. OK so that was the "normal" response I expected....
Now I have been having issues with my back, neck, low back and severe pain down my legs and muscle weakness in arms and legs etc... I have been putting up with it but it has become a major issue when I go out on the town with hubby or shopping with my daughters and I get in so much pain I want to cry or sleep.
So I brought this up to her...
She sent me for blood work and xrays.
She called me today (July 5)..
diagnosis: Spondylosis (main issue), possible Colitis, Plantar fasciitis and she named a few more things off... She told me she thinks there are more things going on that would cause all this and would like to slowly look into it all.
First she is sending me to a specialist to do with the spondylosis.... my back is fusing itself together from degeneration and pinching nerves and muscles - that is the
root of my arm, leg, back pain & muscle weakness.
She is putting me on strong anti-inflammatory to help - and she wants me to lose weight and sign up for yoga or Pilate's! hahahahahahaha
Maybe I will actually figure out what is causing the pain under my ribs.... been 4 years now since I originally went to a doctor about it.
I don't want to get my hopes up... but she appears to genuinely want to help me... so I will go along with it
I am a bit puzzled tho... when she (Dr) was checking me over she asked if I shaved my legs... I said "yes, but I can't remember the last time I did as I have next to no hair (only a patch around my knee cap that gets a little "dark"), must be the Norwegian in me. " she said "hmm" but she wouldn't elaborate. so what is THAT supposed to mean? LOL
P.S. I didn't go to WW and WI cause I got the Dr's appt at the same time and thought one was more important than the other .... will go next wednesday :)
Friday, June 29, 2012
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Week 5/ Day 4 before
Today is WI - I really don't want to go... I will get there right when the meeting starts... the first thing my mom will ask is "how did you do?" *sigh*
I have been doing nothing
I really am having major issues with getting into the frame of mind that this is a life long thing and I have to watch everything ALL the time.
When I eat, I just want to eat and move on. I don't want anything fancy, I don't even cook fancy. I really don't care how my plate looks as long as I like whats on my plate.
I just want to go along with my daily stuff and not obsess!
Okay am I now obsessing over not obsessing?
*sigh*
I don't know...
Well, I better get to WI or I will be getting texts of "where are u?"
I'll be back...
I have been doing nothing
I really am having major issues with getting into the frame of mind that this is a life long thing and I have to watch everything ALL the time.
When I eat, I just want to eat and move on. I don't want anything fancy, I don't even cook fancy. I really don't care how my plate looks as long as I like whats on my plate.
I just want to go along with my daily stuff and not obsess!
Okay am I now obsessing over not obsessing?
*sigh*
I don't know...
Well, I better get to WI or I will be getting texts of "where are u?"
I'll be back...
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Week 4/ Day 4 Hmmmm
Okay, after my little pity party yesterday I went to WI today and stayed the same... I had gained 2.4 lbs the week before and figured I was continuing my upward run again.
At least I didn't do any damage this week. It was that time of the month last week which was probably the main cause of my pity party
*sigh* now to slap myself up the side of the head and get back on track.
Today at my WW meeting they passed around cards.. you had to write your name on the outside and on the inside you put down your summer goal... around mid September they will pull these cards from our file and see if each person reached their goal.
My goal? Well I put down " lose 10 more lbs and get out and walk/steps more".
I think that is doable - it should be doable. I shouldn't get into a slump or be mad at myself in September unless I completely fall off the wagon over summer. I certainly don't plan to do that!
Onward and downward...
At least I didn't do any damage this week. It was that time of the month last week which was probably the main cause of my pity party
*sigh* now to slap myself up the side of the head and get back on track.
Today at my WW meeting they passed around cards.. you had to write your name on the outside and on the inside you put down your summer goal... around mid September they will pull these cards from our file and see if each person reached their goal.
My goal? Well I put down " lose 10 more lbs and get out and walk/steps more".
I think that is doable - it should be doable. I shouldn't get into a slump or be mad at myself in September unless I completely fall off the wagon over summer. I certainly don't plan to do that!
Onward and downward...
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Week 4/ Day 3
Failed again.
I have not been strict... that is the only way I can lose weight. I have not made it my single most thought... I am gaining my weight back again - that near 6 pounds that I lost is coming back on in rapid succession...
I'm sick of this... I am at a low emotionally - big low AGAIN.
why should I have to be so strict to get results?
*sigh*
I hate this...
I hate being fat...
I hate how much work it takes to get my fat off...
I hate the way I look...
I hate that my hair is short and that it won't grow...
I hate that tomorrow is WI and I will be disappointed again...
I hate that I feel this way...
I hate that I have failed...
I hate that there is a certain someone that thinks they can fix me by telling me I am going at it all wrong and that I should do it their way -
I hate that their way has already been tried and I know it doesn't work but they won't believe me.
I hate that I have been told I am full of self pity...
I hate that I am told they won't listen to me any more cause they've heard it all before.
I hate that I get tired of following strict guidelines and get sabotaged
I hate that I feel ugly in more ways than one
I hate seeing myself in a recent picture cause I am fat and my hair is so thin it can't hold a barrette of any kind
I hate seeing myself in a past picture cause I was beautiful, relatively thin and had long hair that could be braided and could hold a barrette
I hate that it has come to writing all this down...
*sigh*
I hate that I repeat myself so much.. I am off again, on again, off again, on again... same old story - boring story.
Whatever...
I'll bounce back... literally... unless I become too fat to bounce
Yeah this is a bit of a beat me up post. I am just extremely frustrated with everything and I mean everything... myself included.
I always hope I'll be successful so that I have something to cheer with others about but my dreams aren't becoming a reality they are becoming a frustration.
Give me a sack dress any day - they are really comfortable.
Okay, I am running out of things to beat myself up with...
maybe I can move on now.
I have not been strict... that is the only way I can lose weight. I have not made it my single most thought... I am gaining my weight back again - that near 6 pounds that I lost is coming back on in rapid succession...
I'm sick of this... I am at a low emotionally - big low AGAIN.
why should I have to be so strict to get results?
*sigh*
I hate this...
I hate being fat...
I hate how much work it takes to get my fat off...
I hate the way I look...
I hate that my hair is short and that it won't grow...
I hate that tomorrow is WI and I will be disappointed again...
I hate that I feel this way...
I hate that I have failed...
I hate that there is a certain someone that thinks they can fix me by telling me I am going at it all wrong and that I should do it their way -
I hate that their way has already been tried and I know it doesn't work but they won't believe me.
I hate that I have been told I am full of self pity...
I hate that I am told they won't listen to me any more cause they've heard it all before.
I hate that I get tired of following strict guidelines and get sabotaged
I hate that I feel ugly in more ways than one
I hate seeing myself in a recent picture cause I am fat and my hair is so thin it can't hold a barrette of any kind
I hate seeing myself in a past picture cause I was beautiful, relatively thin and had long hair that could be braided and could hold a barrette
I hate that it has come to writing all this down...
*sigh*
I hate that I repeat myself so much.. I am off again, on again, off again, on again... same old story - boring story.
Whatever...
I'll bounce back... literally... unless I become too fat to bounce
Yeah this is a bit of a beat me up post. I am just extremely frustrated with everything and I mean everything... myself included.
I always hope I'll be successful so that I have something to cheer with others about but my dreams aren't becoming a reality they are becoming a frustration.
Give me a sack dress any day - they are really comfortable.
Okay, I am running out of things to beat myself up with...
maybe I can move on now.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Day 3 / Week 3
Holy Toledo! So much for posting here every day!
Okay I will be honest - I haven't been doing well.. but I haven't been doing bad...
My skirt is still loose feeling but I haven't stepped on a scale.
I haven't eaten stupid - just haven't tracked.
I have been forgetting my water... gotta get that back on track again...
tomorrow is WI and I will figure out the damage and get my butt in gear again
Hopefully I haven't destroyed my progress so far
Okay I will be honest - I haven't been doing well.. but I haven't been doing bad...
My skirt is still loose feeling but I haven't stepped on a scale.
I haven't eaten stupid - just haven't tracked.
I have been forgetting my water... gotta get that back on track again...
tomorrow is WI and I will figure out the damage and get my butt in gear again
Hopefully I haven't destroyed my progress so far
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Day 3/ Week 2
Tuesday...
Another office day - got some walking in to and from the laundry room and the barn for more paperwork!
Eating wise was spot on..
Tonight we went out for dinner with some company and I made a very good choice. Actually I didn't think I would be full enough but after 2 glasses of water, a side salad and a small turkey wrap I am FULL. Almost too full.
I think I have shrunk my stomach.. that is a good thing. It could also be because I ate a wrap... I haven't had bread or wheat in over a week so that could be part of the issue.
It tasted good and I will have another glass of water soon then head for bed.
Hopefully I will get a good sleep tonight - sometimes they come few and far between.
Tomorrow is WI day and that I am looking forward to.
Another office day - got some walking in to and from the laundry room and the barn for more paperwork!
Eating wise was spot on..
Tonight we went out for dinner with some company and I made a very good choice. Actually I didn't think I would be full enough but after 2 glasses of water, a side salad and a small turkey wrap I am FULL. Almost too full.
I think I have shrunk my stomach.. that is a good thing. It could also be because I ate a wrap... I haven't had bread or wheat in over a week so that could be part of the issue.
It tasted good and I will have another glass of water soon then head for bed.
Hopefully I will get a good sleep tonight - sometimes they come few and far between.
Tomorrow is WI day and that I am looking forward to.
Day 2/ Week 2
Monday... I have started writing the days on here cause I am confusing myself on the Days and Weeks LOL mainly the days.
Monday was an office sit down and be at a computer most of the day.
Did I get anything accomplished? Well, a few things but not as much as I would like.
Why am I here? Well, I am trying not to get behind on my blog!
So with that said... Monday went fine although lacking exercise and movement.
Tuesday is no different. I HAVE to get caught up on my office work.
So I am leaving this post to put my nose to the grind stone and get 'er done!
Tomorrow is WI...
Hopefully that will be more exciting than this post.
Maybe this post was exciting... I talked of yesterday, today and tomorrow - although briefly!
Monday was an office sit down and be at a computer most of the day.
Did I get anything accomplished? Well, a few things but not as much as I would like.
Why am I here? Well, I am trying not to get behind on my blog!
So with that said... Monday went fine although lacking exercise and movement.
Tuesday is no different. I HAVE to get caught up on my office work.
So I am leaving this post to put my nose to the grind stone and get 'er done!
Tomorrow is WI...
Hopefully that will be more exciting than this post.
Maybe this post was exciting... I talked of yesterday, today and tomorrow - although briefly!
Monday, June 4, 2012
Day 1/ Week 2 & measure
Sunday... when things are slow on the farm this is our day of rest.
Today I did some measuring...
Bust 43 down 1/2"
Waist 38 down 2"
Hips 41 down 1"
I'm good on that! My clothes are definitely fitting better... and I am pleased that my bust isn't disappearing faster than other areas lol
On this day we went and visited an Aunt that is in a Care Home. She hasn't been well so we went in to cheer her up.. plus we promised her a grad picture of our son.
On the way home we stopped for lunch... I do my research before I order things and I ate very healthy. I cart my water bottle with me every where I go.. that's great until you have to use the washroom and there is none to be found! LOL
Dinner was no different. I made a yummy veggie soup, BBQ steaks and some home made baking powder biscuits. I had a big bowl of soup and a small piece of steak and yes I had a biscuit. Delish!
Onto week 2... I WI in 2 days... I look forward to seeing what the scale tells me...
Today I did some measuring...
Bust 43 down 1/2"
Waist 38 down 2"
Hips 41 down 1"
I'm good on that! My clothes are definitely fitting better... and I am pleased that my bust isn't disappearing faster than other areas lol
On this day we went and visited an Aunt that is in a Care Home. She hasn't been well so we went in to cheer her up.. plus we promised her a grad picture of our son.
On the way home we stopped for lunch... I do my research before I order things and I ate very healthy. I cart my water bottle with me every where I go.. that's great until you have to use the washroom and there is none to be found! LOL
Dinner was no different. I made a yummy veggie soup, BBQ steaks and some home made baking powder biscuits. I had a big bowl of soup and a small piece of steak and yes I had a biscuit. Delish!
Onto week 2... I WI in 2 days... I look forward to seeing what the scale tells me...
Day 7/ Week 1
So I woke on Saturday with lots of ideas in my head of what to wear and what to eat... big thing I didn't know was what we would be eating at my sons Prom for Dinner.
I washed, ironed and got myboys men ready for the Prom Dinner. I even laid out 3 outfits and had them decide which would be best. Normally I have a body image issue... but I very much let that slide and enjoyed what I looked like - If they liked what I looked like then so should I.
The time came and off to the Prom we went.
The food started to be laid out (I had a snack before we left so I wasn't starving at the buffet)
I filled my plate with fresh garden salad, lots of raw veggies, some salmon and a chicken breast. I ate, was satisfied and didn't even look at the desserts... the flowing chocolate fountain... okay I looked at the fountain but that was all - I had nothing.
The best part was the servers kept coming around to the tables and filling our water glasses. I only drink water so that was great! (made for a few trips to the bathroom but it was still great!) Hubby was even "behaved"... he tried to tempt me with describing some desserts but I wasn't interested. He didn't go up either so we both did well.
It was a late night and little sleep was had keeping track of where my son was throughout the night but all is well that ends well.
I washed, ironed and got my
The time came and off to the Prom we went.
The food started to be laid out (I had a snack before we left so I wasn't starving at the buffet)
I filled my plate with fresh garden salad, lots of raw veggies, some salmon and a chicken breast. I ate, was satisfied and didn't even look at the desserts... the flowing chocolate fountain... okay I looked at the fountain but that was all - I had nothing.
The best part was the servers kept coming around to the tables and filling our water glasses. I only drink water so that was great! (made for a few trips to the bathroom but it was still great!) Hubby was even "behaved"... he tried to tempt me with describing some desserts but I wasn't interested. He didn't go up either so we both did well.
It was a late night and little sleep was had keeping track of where my son was throughout the night but all is well that ends well.
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Day 6/ Week 1
Whoa!!!! Near catastrophe!
I was doing good in the morning - okay that is. I didn't get much moving in cause I was doing computer work. As the day wore on I could feel myself getting lazy... and my son hadn't taken the last 2 pieces of pizza that were in the fridge. (DANGER!) I went to the fridge several times ( that was my activity LOL) open, "NOOOO", close... walk away.
Lucky when my son got home the first thing he did was go to the fridge and eat that pizza! Now its gone! PHEW one problem solved.
Later, my mother came over and we had to go to the Mall to get her cell phone checked out and I needed a dress for my sons Prom amongst other things. My mom only stayed long enough for the phone issue and she tootled home. I then took on the unpleasant job of shopping for a formal dress for myself.
It is very hard to find a modest formal dress! Everything is no sleeves, above the knee, low front, low back... they all have one or more of these features. When I had a lady help me (I had picked out a skirt and was looking for a formal top) she grabbed tops with graffiti on the front and other such casual items. I don't think people know the meaning of formal.
Anyway, I did pick out a dress and a skirt... I think I will wear the skirt with a top I already have... this marathon took me more time than I had planned. I called home and hubby had been in from the barn for an hour and hadn't eaten supper.
Well, I knew what I wanted for supper but it wasn't made and hubby doesn't really cook. It would take me longer to explain what to do than to do it myself... but that would make for a very very late supper. Soooo, I went to McDonald's.
Now, before you GASP. I firmly believe that fast food places DO serve healthy food choices. Think about it... salads (and they package the extras so you can decide to put them on or not); fruit and yogurt, apple slices, water... there ARE healthy choices. But my problem can be when I get there I waiver and don't make those healthy choices.
But last night I did. I ordered the Thai salad with grilled chicken (no extras just the fork) and a fruit n yogurt parfait... for hubby I ordered a Grilled chicken BLT and a Fruit n yogurt parfait and we had water at home.
I was happy with my choice and happy I didn't waiver cause I let myself go too long (missed my afternoon snack) and I was really hungry. Once I ate dinner I was satisfied and I enjoyed snuggle time with my hubby.
All ended good and I got a good night sleep... now to make it through Day 7!
Challenge: Sons Prom - don't know what is being served
I was doing good in the morning - okay that is. I didn't get much moving in cause I was doing computer work. As the day wore on I could feel myself getting lazy... and my son hadn't taken the last 2 pieces of pizza that were in the fridge. (DANGER!) I went to the fridge several times ( that was my activity LOL) open, "NOOOO", close... walk away.
Lucky when my son got home the first thing he did was go to the fridge and eat that pizza! Now its gone! PHEW one problem solved.
Later, my mother came over and we had to go to the Mall to get her cell phone checked out and I needed a dress for my sons Prom amongst other things. My mom only stayed long enough for the phone issue and she tootled home. I then took on the unpleasant job of shopping for a formal dress for myself.
It is very hard to find a modest formal dress! Everything is no sleeves, above the knee, low front, low back... they all have one or more of these features. When I had a lady help me (I had picked out a skirt and was looking for a formal top) she grabbed tops with graffiti on the front and other such casual items. I don't think people know the meaning of formal.
Anyway, I did pick out a dress and a skirt... I think I will wear the skirt with a top I already have... this marathon took me more time than I had planned. I called home and hubby had been in from the barn for an hour and hadn't eaten supper.
Well, I knew what I wanted for supper but it wasn't made and hubby doesn't really cook. It would take me longer to explain what to do than to do it myself... but that would make for a very very late supper. Soooo, I went to McDonald's.
Now, before you GASP. I firmly believe that fast food places DO serve healthy food choices. Think about it... salads (and they package the extras so you can decide to put them on or not); fruit and yogurt, apple slices, water... there ARE healthy choices. But my problem can be when I get there I waiver and don't make those healthy choices.
But last night I did. I ordered the Thai salad with grilled chicken (no extras just the fork) and a fruit n yogurt parfait... for hubby I ordered a Grilled chicken BLT and a Fruit n yogurt parfait and we had water at home.
I was happy with my choice and happy I didn't waiver cause I let myself go too long (missed my afternoon snack) and I was really hungry. Once I ate dinner I was satisfied and I enjoyed snuggle time with my hubby.
All ended good and I got a good night sleep... now to make it through Day 7!
Challenge: Sons Prom - don't know what is being served
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Day 5/ Week 1
Today has been a different day...
I got up and had breakfast and waited... waited... and waited...
I was waiting for my son to get up and/or my daughter to arrive.
Well I decided I couldn't wait any longer... so I started my work without either.
My dd did eventually arrive but our plans didn't fully work out so had to go to Plan B.
My son finally got up and he met me outside in the barn where we had about 2 hours of work to do. Once finished (he did an amazing job and had great ideas) we came in for a later lunch than I like to have...I had kept my water intake up while working outside..
BUT while I made my lunch... my son made pizza.
I am a pizza fanatic... It took everything within me not to have a piece - and boy did I want a piece!
My daughter had some and later my son had a friend over and they ate more... each time I opened the fridge I had to move it or get something beside it and OH MY it was difficult not to "just have a sliver".
I was full, I didn't need to eat it... I kept telling myself "how am I going to explain this in my blog" and I could just take a piece and not count it or not say anything but I know I wouldn't be happy with myself and would be very mad about giving in. I had very satisfying food. My body got what it needed and I knew I would feel crappy if I ate the pizza. You see I am sensitive to wheat - it makes me bloated and icky.. I don't like that feeling so I am trying to completely avoid bread... also tomatoes bother my stomach and give me acid reflux - so the sauce would have caused me grief. All these things were going through my mind and YES I can say that I never had any of it... not even a sliver!
After I write this I am going to bed (I am aware that there are 2 more slices still in the fridge but my son will take them in his lunch tomorrow).
I told him not to make pizza around me and he said I needed to have some will power... I said it was like dangling a beer in front of an alcoholic... its not as easy as "will power".
After the barn work I went to town and later I got a nice dinner all ready... I ate dinner a little later than I would have liked but sometimes farming causes that. Our cows broke through a gate and we had to fix it and put them back on the right side of the fence. Of course they don't do this at a convenient time LOL
I am still pleased with my day and even hubby has been stepping on the scale and he's been losing weight too.
It is historical that if I lose weight my hubby gains and vice versa... but I think this time we have broken the spell - we are losing at the same time.
Well, part of losing weight is getting enough sleep (which I usually lack) so I better get myself off to bed.
Until tomorrow...
I got up and had breakfast and waited... waited... and waited...
I was waiting for my son to get up and/or my daughter to arrive.
Well I decided I couldn't wait any longer... so I started my work without either.
My dd did eventually arrive but our plans didn't fully work out so had to go to Plan B.
My son finally got up and he met me outside in the barn where we had about 2 hours of work to do. Once finished (he did an amazing job and had great ideas) we came in for a later lunch than I like to have...I had kept my water intake up while working outside..
BUT while I made my lunch... my son made pizza.
I am a pizza fanatic... It took everything within me not to have a piece - and boy did I want a piece!
My daughter had some and later my son had a friend over and they ate more... each time I opened the fridge I had to move it or get something beside it and OH MY it was difficult not to "just have a sliver".
I was full, I didn't need to eat it... I kept telling myself "how am I going to explain this in my blog" and I could just take a piece and not count it or not say anything but I know I wouldn't be happy with myself and would be very mad about giving in. I had very satisfying food. My body got what it needed and I knew I would feel crappy if I ate the pizza. You see I am sensitive to wheat - it makes me bloated and icky.. I don't like that feeling so I am trying to completely avoid bread... also tomatoes bother my stomach and give me acid reflux - so the sauce would have caused me grief. All these things were going through my mind and YES I can say that I never had any of it... not even a sliver!
After I write this I am going to bed (I am aware that there are 2 more slices still in the fridge but my son will take them in his lunch tomorrow).
I told him not to make pizza around me and he said I needed to have some will power... I said it was like dangling a beer in front of an alcoholic... its not as easy as "will power".
After the barn work I went to town and later I got a nice dinner all ready... I ate dinner a little later than I would have liked but sometimes farming causes that. Our cows broke through a gate and we had to fix it and put them back on the right side of the fence. Of course they don't do this at a convenient time LOL
I am still pleased with my day and even hubby has been stepping on the scale and he's been losing weight too.
It is historical that if I lose weight my hubby gains and vice versa... but I think this time we have broken the spell - we are losing at the same time.
Well, part of losing weight is getting enough sleep (which I usually lack) so I better get myself off to bed.
Until tomorrow...
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Day 4/ Week 1
Today was WI day... Normally I begrudge this day cause I know I haven't been following protocol.. but today I KNEW I was going to be down. I could feel it (and I stepped on the scale the day before). Yes the day before... my battery died on my scale over night so I couldn't weigh myself this morning. Go ahead and laugh! I am! LOL
WI was funny... I was given my 'card' and when I got up to the scale knowing I had done well the gal says..somethings wrong.. this can't be you.. I said Oh, are you sure cause I know I did okay!? ... Then I realized that the gal who handed out our "cards" must have handed me the one that belonged to the girl behind me. She had got them mixed up. I said "hey either I did real good or she did awesome!" LOL All of us had a good laugh cause the gal whose card got mixed up with mine (and is very humorous!) is quite a bit larger than I.
We traded cards and all was well... the meeting was good too. I got 3 "bravo" stickers for my steps. I had reached 3 more towns since my last count. There were several weight loss awards too.
I am "re losing" my weight so I don't get awards at this time for losing. If I would have left WW (not gone to meetings for awhile) and then came back that would be different. But when I have been in the same seat for several years and gained while sitting there - yeah I don't get awards for losing the same weight again.
Really, I don't want any awards for losing it until I have actually got my 30 lbs off (where I left off before gaining again!)... then any weight loss after that I am willing to get awards for.
If I got something now I would feel like I would have to explain myself. Although there are new people attending and don't know how long I have warmed the seat at the meeting. There are also people attending that are life timers and DO know how long I have been warming the seat.. and have seen me lose the weight and put it back on.
In conclusion to today, I guess I should tell you how much I am down :)
I lost 5.7 pounds!
My goal is to lose 10 by cruise time... I have 6 more weeks to lose roughly 4 lbs... but if I lose more - HEY who's complaining?
WI was funny... I was given my 'card' and when I got up to the scale knowing I had done well the gal says..somethings wrong.. this can't be you.. I said Oh, are you sure cause I know I did okay!? ... Then I realized that the gal who handed out our "cards" must have handed me the one that belonged to the girl behind me. She had got them mixed up. I said "hey either I did real good or she did awesome!" LOL All of us had a good laugh cause the gal whose card got mixed up with mine (and is very humorous!) is quite a bit larger than I.
We traded cards and all was well... the meeting was good too. I got 3 "bravo" stickers for my steps. I had reached 3 more towns since my last count. There were several weight loss awards too.
I am "re losing" my weight so I don't get awards at this time for losing. If I would have left WW (not gone to meetings for awhile) and then came back that would be different. But when I have been in the same seat for several years and gained while sitting there - yeah I don't get awards for losing the same weight again.
Really, I don't want any awards for losing it until I have actually got my 30 lbs off (where I left off before gaining again!)... then any weight loss after that I am willing to get awards for.
If I got something now I would feel like I would have to explain myself. Although there are new people attending and don't know how long I have warmed the seat at the meeting. There are also people attending that are life timers and DO know how long I have been warming the seat.. and have seen me lose the weight and put it back on.
In conclusion to today, I guess I should tell you how much I am down :)
I lost 5.7 pounds!
My goal is to lose 10 by cruise time... I have 6 more weeks to lose roughly 4 lbs... but if I lose more - HEY who's complaining?
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Day 3/ Week 1
I had a good day today food & fluid wise but not so good emotionally.
I had a lamb that I have been trying to "make better" for the past 4 weeks and this morning I found her in respiratory distress and had to euthanize her. That is the part of farming that I really, really don't like.
I will move on because I know there was nothing I could do and doing what I did, did her a favor. She is no longer suffering
So, after saying that, the rest of the day went much better and I buried myself in paperwork... which meant I sat at a desk a good part of the day. Good that I got lots done but not so good that I didn't move much. I didn't make my 10,000 steps today even though lately I have been averaging 12,500 steps in a day. I will make it up tomorrow as I have a bunch of barn work to do.
I am proud of myself cause I got informed that we were "eating out" at lunch. I had my lunch already prepared and took it with me. I ate mine while others ordered and ate theirs. It was at a fast food/gas station so no one pays attention that you aren't ordering or eating what they have there.
Tomorrow is WI day for me. I am actually excited about it. I will let you know how it went tomorrow evening... if your lucky maybe even sooner :)
I had a lamb that I have been trying to "make better" for the past 4 weeks and this morning I found her in respiratory distress and had to euthanize her. That is the part of farming that I really, really don't like.
I will move on because I know there was nothing I could do and doing what I did, did her a favor. She is no longer suffering
So, after saying that, the rest of the day went much better and I buried myself in paperwork... which meant I sat at a desk a good part of the day. Good that I got lots done but not so good that I didn't move much. I didn't make my 10,000 steps today even though lately I have been averaging 12,500 steps in a day. I will make it up tomorrow as I have a bunch of barn work to do.
I am proud of myself cause I got informed that we were "eating out" at lunch. I had my lunch already prepared and took it with me. I ate mine while others ordered and ate theirs. It was at a fast food/gas station so no one pays attention that you aren't ordering or eating what they have there.
Tomorrow is WI day for me. I am actually excited about it. I will let you know how it went tomorrow evening... if your lucky maybe even sooner :)
Day 2/ Week 1
Yesterday went well...
I drowned myself in water and have been following my food menu quite well.
I am not hungry and haven't been craving any chocolate, Skinny cow or the like... this is when I KNOW my head is in the right space. I do have these things in my fridge/freezer but I have a goal... when I have a goal (and I am desperate) I stick to it.
Oh I have had thoughts... but my goal leaps in front of me and says "nope, no thx".
I haven't been really challenged... cause I have been eating at home every day... Thursday will be a challenge as we go out for lunch - its a given (long story). So depending on where we go as to what choice I will make.
I am not going to lie, so far I do step on the scale every morning, not to obsess, but to make sure I am on the right track. To be aware of what I am doing is working. Morning is the ONLY time I step on the scale... and it keeps me motivated. I will only post my weight when I do official WI.
I do know that weight fluctuates all day long - you weigh heavier at night than in the morning... blah blah blah...
I am feeling pretty good about all this - but I will admit I have only been on this for 2 days (strictly) and it feels like a month already.
Time to get to back to work... my desk needs clearing of a pile of paperwork.. which means I will have to be double sure I take some time out for a long walk today.
I drowned myself in water and have been following my food menu quite well.
I am not hungry and haven't been craving any chocolate, Skinny cow or the like... this is when I KNOW my head is in the right space. I do have these things in my fridge/freezer but I have a goal... when I have a goal (and I am desperate) I stick to it.
Oh I have had thoughts... but my goal leaps in front of me and says "nope, no thx".
I haven't been really challenged... cause I have been eating at home every day... Thursday will be a challenge as we go out for lunch - its a given (long story). So depending on where we go as to what choice I will make.
I am not going to lie, so far I do step on the scale every morning, not to obsess, but to make sure I am on the right track. To be aware of what I am doing is working. Morning is the ONLY time I step on the scale... and it keeps me motivated. I will only post my weight when I do official WI.
I do know that weight fluctuates all day long - you weigh heavier at night than in the morning... blah blah blah...
I am feeling pretty good about all this - but I will admit I have only been on this for 2 days (strictly) and it feels like a month already.
Time to get to back to work... my desk needs clearing of a pile of paperwork.. which means I will have to be double sure I take some time out for a long walk today.
Monday, May 28, 2012
The beginning
The beginning of my 7 week journey:
Stats:
Weight (official weight on May 16 @ a WW meeting)
Measures: as of today May 28
I could measure more places but I think it would overwhelm me and I want to keep this as simple as possible. Those are the important spots - and I guarantee the bust will disappear first!
Okay now for the real thing... what I actually look like... the before pic
Move more? I LOVE this... I was reading an article this morning and a guy commented about the partial definition of "Glutes: non-weight bearing devices"
Stats:
Weight (official weight on May 16 @ a WW meeting)
- 181.4
Measures: as of today May 28
- waist 40
- Hips 42
- Bust 43.5
I could measure more places but I think it would overwhelm me and I want to keep this as simple as possible. Those are the important spots - and I guarantee the bust will disappear first!
Okay now for the real thing... what I actually look like... the before pic
Move more? I LOVE this... I was reading an article this morning and a guy commented about the partial definition of "Glutes: non-weight bearing devices"
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Cruisin' motivation
Long story... kinda. Back before Christmas I mentioned to my hubby that "next" year (2013) is our 25th wedding anniversary. Hubby quite likes watching the Gold Rush shows on TV and has tried a little gold panning himself around our area - for fun. So I mentioned to him "why don't we take an Alaskan cruise?" I know he would love the ruggedness of it (shore excursions), the glaciers, the GOLD PANNING...
BUT
and yes its a BIG but.. timing is key. If and when we take holidays is usually in the winter when no field work needs to be done (we are farmers if you haven't guessed). Alaska isn't a place I want to be in the winter and Cruise ships don't run then either; end of August is usually the best time for us.
BUT
- yes another BIG but. Hubby wasn't so sure he wanted to take that much time away - well actually depending on the weather depends on when we crop and if we go away in the summer its usually a last moment decision... a Cruise you have to book and stick to it. So I had kind of all but given up the idea.
THEN... around March (or was it April?) I got a message from my cousins hubby. He said "Hey, its our 25th anniversary coming up this summer and I would like to surprise my wife (my cousin) with a Cruise to Alaska... you two want to come?"
WELL... My hubby and my cousin's hubby get along very well (Two rednecks in a pod)... so I broached the subject with my hubby again. Long story short, the answer was YES.
SO... with the cruise booked... for a week in July. We had to do the math in regards to when the ships sail and estimate approximately when cropping would be getting done (gotta go between cropping) and what other things are scheduled around that time on top of arranging around my cousins schedule...yep it was interesting but we managed.
SO...
That brings me to why I have posted this here....
I have 7 weeks...
7 weeks to:
- get into shape
- lose weight
I don't want to look like a beached whale beside the pool on the ship... ;P
I have set out a plan... with a goal which I believe I can reach.
Today is Day 1/week 1
I am determined to lose at least 10 lbs before we leave. I think that is reasonable. That is 1.43 lbs a week.
Over long term I know I would not be able to keep that up and I shouldn't keep that up cause its unhealthy to lose fast (easy go, easy come back on).
So I have pulled out my Eat Clean book with its menu plans and will follow it for 1-2 weeks... All the while keeping track of my portions and tracking in my WW app what I eat and drink. Then I will switch to the WW menus that they give each week on 3 different topics. It's for members just starting. You get to hear about it during the meeting after the main meeting. That's 5 weeks covered... then I may switch back to the Eat Clean menu.
My plan is; I want my body to keep guessing and not get lazy... All the while I have cut out pop and foods that my body is sensitive to. Recently I try to cook fresh and not out of a can or use prepared food processed food (unless its my own healthy canning) - and we have, over the past 3 weeks, severely decreased the amount of times we go out to restaurants and fast food places. ( hubby lost weight and I gained weight when we made this change... go figure)
One good thing though is I seem to be getting the determination back and drive to get this done...
I'm trying not to look at how far I have to go but just making sure I'm following the plan I've set for myself... Everything else should follow in succession right?
And I know what you are thinking... NO I am not going to "pig out" once I get on the cruise. We will be exploring so much stuff that I will get lots of exercise in and they have an awesome diabetic menu... yes, I use their diabetic menu. It keeps me in check and the food tastes great!
Last year when I went to Europe for 3 weeks I lost weight... we walked, and walked, and walked, and drank lots of water and although it seemed we ate a lot it was small portions and I never went for seconds. I also didn't eat foods I knew my body is sensitive too.
So this is all doable! I just have to keep my mind in the right head space.
This is what we have to look forward to... that should be incentive.. yes? ;)
Island Princess heading to Alaska
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Been away
I have been to AB and back... and the only thing I left behind was our car. Yep! our car died about an hour and a half from home. The motor fried... no warning... just done.
No excuses, no nothing.. I ate stupidly, felt crappy and now I am moving on. I didn't even weigh in yesterday at WW. I skipped it.
I guess I am just not serious enough about this. Can't find my mojo. still suffering from burnout? I don't know.. but nothing more to explain. Didn't do it.. plain and simple.
No excuses, no nothing.. I ate stupidly, felt crappy and now I am moving on. I didn't even weigh in yesterday at WW. I skipped it.
I guess I am just not serious enough about this. Can't find my mojo. still suffering from burnout? I don't know.. but nothing more to explain. Didn't do it.. plain and simple.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
It's me again
I have spent most of the day beating myself up so thought I should come here and talk about it.
I've got the same old story about wanting to get my weight down... I had a deadline and everything. Do you think I can
Get myself to do it? I am so mad at myself and yet I don't have the energy
To organize and plan. Just thinking about it makes me incredibly tired.
I wish I could find that energy and meal creativity again. Nothing in the food department interests me and
Exercise is certainly not on my priority list when it exhausts me.
I seriously over ate tonight and feel very gross for it.
I think tomorrow I'm going to forget about the past (was nearly at goal in 2007) and
Get out my books, drink a glass of water and start from the beginning.
I was just given a new weight record book at WW and that is another reason why
I should start a new beginning.
Who is with me on this? I am still determined to get weight off by my sons grad in June!
Any takers of support? I know there is a few of u that read this blog and even some of u I may not know.
Time to make yourself known. Drop me a line in the comment box...
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Flu Vamoose!
Our household has been stricken with a nasty cold that just will NOT go away.
DH had it mildly (got it from his dad) then I got it terribly! I was sick for 5 days on the couch with a chest cold... I was soon able to do a little something after that but it has been more than 6 weeks and I still have a cough and feel tired easily. About 2 weeks after my infliction DH came down with it more severely. He too was house bound and resting for 5 days before attempting to go back to work... but always seemed to end up back in the house for a nap at points during the day. It was clearing up for the most part and then yesterday he woke with a sinus headache and now it seems to have gone from his chest to his head.
Our son who has been free from most all this "illness" came down with it last night. He has been coughing and has a nasty fever. Poor guy.
Both have been turning up the heat in the house cause they are cold (from fevers) and I am dying of heat! I told them there is no way I am having hot flashes! But the 2 keep the heat turned up.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better but I think our son is in the worst of it and it will be at least 3 or 4 more days before he starts feeling like doing anything again. I guess its a good thing that the teachers are walking out on strike on Monday - he won't miss any school.
I just hope the 2 don't give it back to me full force! I am still trying to beat it.
DH had it mildly (got it from his dad) then I got it terribly! I was sick for 5 days on the couch with a chest cold... I was soon able to do a little something after that but it has been more than 6 weeks and I still have a cough and feel tired easily. About 2 weeks after my infliction DH came down with it more severely. He too was house bound and resting for 5 days before attempting to go back to work... but always seemed to end up back in the house for a nap at points during the day. It was clearing up for the most part and then yesterday he woke with a sinus headache and now it seems to have gone from his chest to his head.
Our son who has been free from most all this "illness" came down with it last night. He has been coughing and has a nasty fever. Poor guy.
Both have been turning up the heat in the house cause they are cold (from fevers) and I am dying of heat! I told them there is no way I am having hot flashes! But the 2 keep the heat turned up.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better but I think our son is in the worst of it and it will be at least 3 or 4 more days before he starts feeling like doing anything again. I guess its a good thing that the teachers are walking out on strike on Monday - he won't miss any school.
I just hope the 2 don't give it back to me full force! I am still trying to beat it.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Surprise, Surprise!
You can say that again! I had the most stressful week ever when it should have been the best week ever. On Monday February 27th it was DH and I 24th wedding anniversary. Well, they say things come in 3's... I had 3 and hope it stops!
First, DH has been having some health issues. We have spent time at the Dr's and lab... blood work, ECG, Holter... now we wait. He seems to feel a little better until this morning - he thinks he is coming down with a head cold. :(
Second, my DD texted me in a panic or what seemed like a panic. She is unhappy with work and she was telling me she was going to quit, get into something else... not sure if she wants to do that... but then really wants to do that... "can I talk to you about it?... yes"... then she never showed up...or I thought she was coming over but she changed her mind....
meanwhile, the third thing... There was a situation with an association I belong to and I wrote a brief 2 liner about a discussion we had at the meeting in our executive minutes (exec minutes go in the newsletter as a draft) and the business it pertained to read it and called our president and threatened to sue for slander. *sigh* She had incredible demands so we called an emergency exec meeting and I contacted a lawyer. Thank God, I was told I did nothing wrong she was just seriously over reacting. We "amended" the minutes as the lawyer advised and now we wait to see what comes of it from here. BUT in the meantime I seriously lost sleep, had migraines and felt terrible about putting the association in that position. My stomach is in knots even while I write this!
Oh wait, maybe there is 4 things.. my son who is a wonderful boy has been, well, doing teenage brainless things... its not B-A-D in some sense of the word but he's pushing his luck. It could be much worse...teaching responsibility is stressful!
DH and I did have a nice time 2 days before our anniversary - we went for a drive down a 21 mile scenic route in the USA. We haven't crossed the border into the USA for a couple of years and decided to do something different. We ate at Applebees - I had a very tasty meal, not sure the points but I ordered it using good choices. On the actual day of our anniversary we went to the Olive Garden... its HARD to make good choices there! But I ordered a dinner and brought over half home.
I obviously didn't do much damage cause I lost 2.4 lbs... I don't think it will be hard to lose for next week as my stomach is not handling food well at the moment... it never rains it pours - why can't life run smooth?
First, DH has been having some health issues. We have spent time at the Dr's and lab... blood work, ECG, Holter... now we wait. He seems to feel a little better until this morning - he thinks he is coming down with a head cold. :(
Second, my DD texted me in a panic or what seemed like a panic. She is unhappy with work and she was telling me she was going to quit, get into something else... not sure if she wants to do that... but then really wants to do that... "can I talk to you about it?... yes"... then she never showed up...or I thought she was coming over but she changed her mind....
meanwhile, the third thing... There was a situation with an association I belong to and I wrote a brief 2 liner about a discussion we had at the meeting in our executive minutes (exec minutes go in the newsletter as a draft) and the business it pertained to read it and called our president and threatened to sue for slander. *sigh* She had incredible demands so we called an emergency exec meeting and I contacted a lawyer. Thank God, I was told I did nothing wrong she was just seriously over reacting. We "amended" the minutes as the lawyer advised and now we wait to see what comes of it from here. BUT in the meantime I seriously lost sleep, had migraines and felt terrible about putting the association in that position. My stomach is in knots even while I write this!
Oh wait, maybe there is 4 things.. my son who is a wonderful boy has been, well, doing teenage brainless things... its not B-A-D in some sense of the word but he's pushing his luck. It could be much worse...teaching responsibility is stressful!
DH and I did have a nice time 2 days before our anniversary - we went for a drive down a 21 mile scenic route in the USA. We haven't crossed the border into the USA for a couple of years and decided to do something different. We ate at Applebees - I had a very tasty meal, not sure the points but I ordered it using good choices. On the actual day of our anniversary we went to the Olive Garden... its HARD to make good choices there! But I ordered a dinner and brought over half home.
I obviously didn't do much damage cause I lost 2.4 lbs... I don't think it will be hard to lose for next week as my stomach is not handling food well at the moment... it never rains it pours - why can't life run smooth?
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Its all in my Head
As the title states "its all in my head"... tracking, drinking lots of water, walking... even cycling! I think about it ALL the time! Do I do it? no.
I was up again this week. +0.4 not much but enough for me to grumble at myself.
Today I went out for lunch with my Mom and we both were very conscious about what we ordered. I did pretty darn good. Lunch size Turkey Club Wrap: no mayo, no bacon. Garden salad with Ranch dressing on the side and a peppermint tea. I was very satisfied - although I do get tired of garden salad...
I tracked it all and hopefully can keep this up to see good results for next Wednesdays WI.
I was up again this week. +0.4 not much but enough for me to grumble at myself.
Today I went out for lunch with my Mom and we both were very conscious about what we ordered. I did pretty darn good. Lunch size Turkey Club Wrap: no mayo, no bacon. Garden salad with Ranch dressing on the side and a peppermint tea. I was very satisfied - although I do get tired of garden salad...
I tracked it all and hopefully can keep this up to see good results for next Wednesdays WI.
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