Another decision

I have had to make many decisions lately.  My latest is whether I continue with my naturepath or not.
I have come to the conclusion  it will be "not".
I will admit she has helped me in small areas.  She did an allergy test on me and showed me what foods to stay away from.  In doing so I have not had any acid reflux.  I thought I was sensitive to tomatoes but it is actually the citric acid in foods that is the issue.  If I eat fresh tomatoes it doesn't bother me - if I eat canned it does as they use citric acid as a preservative - it is truly amazing how many things have citric acid in it!
Back to my decision...
another area is I no longer feel bloated after I eat which again I believe its staying away from foods my body is sensitive to.  I have had to learn a whole new way of cooking and still not doing so good with that but I am getting there!
So that is the Pros...
The Cons... well they are many,

1. I had to quit my marathon training because I was getting weaker instead of stronger - truly didn't make sense
2. she wants me to drink "her" protien shakes but they make me very nauseous; I tried to tell her that but she changed one of the ingredients from flax to chiaseed and from flax oil to hemp oil... it made no difference ( I knew it wouldn't) cause its her protien powder that is making me ill but she won't hear that. Funny thing is she told me I was allergic to all rice - but her protein powder is a rice powder - when I brought it up to her she told me I will be fine taking it.  hmmmph.
3. I quit taking her supplements once again - as the first time it was making me have panic attacks - some ingredient in it I was very sensitive to... the second time (this last time) I was falling into a deep depression - when a person like me who has major drive, a go-getter and passionate about everything becomes a lump on the couch for 3 days and doesn't care about the world around me.. that is a major problem!  within a few days of not taking her supplements I am somewhat (not totally) back to "normal". 
4. Since taking her supplements I have had more night sweats than ever before - once I quit it has gone back to "normal"
5. I was always feeling tired and weak, light headed enough to nearly pass out - once I stopped the supplements I have got my energy back, can get up in the morning and get things done in a day
6. I have to admit I was not happy when she reprimanded me about losing more muscle than fat - I for a fact know that you can change that number on the scale within an hour - depending on what you do - eat more, drink more etc.
7. I still get the discomfort/pain under my ribs -
8. when I started on her program I had a constant sore throat - once I quit taking her throat spray that was supposed to boost my immune system the sore throat left too.
9. She doesn't comunicate - she sets a timer when you walk in the room and she asks a couple of questions and "ring!" times up! Her salesman secretary (male) doesn't stop talking about how "wonderful her products are" and "they are the best" "better than anyones out there".  I hate high pressure sales especially when they are trying to sell me something expensive and I really don't think it will help me.  He is always talking vegetarian and I am not a vegetarian and never plan to be one.

Now I know she will say that it is all apart of detoxing but you know what?  I don't want to land in the hospital with panic attacks & depression from detoxing!  I can totally do without that!

I had a chat with my Reflexologist - she is also a Registered Nurse and very much into natural healing.  I have learned to trust her totally.  We discussed my last 10 - 15 years and how much stress my body has been under.  She suggested (key word! suggested) that my body was needing to recouperate from burnout.  She felt that my body was reacting to more stress being put on it from the detox thus giving me the panic attacks and depression.  She mentioned it is probably a good thing that I quit the marathon training as it was putting too much pressure on my already stressed/burnedout body.   She told me to definitely go on walks, definitely exercise but don't put a marathon stress on it.  Let my body heal.   Take an hour out of the day and listen to nature, do my regular 'have to do' jobs but let my body heal from the burnout.  My body can't take much more without tipping the scale too far - bring my body back into balance before challenging it more.
She suggested that now is not the time to be detoxing as it only puts more strain on my already strained body - maybe once I have healed from the burnout I can go back and try again.  She made SO MUCH SENSE!!!
Now why wouldn't the naturepath catch onto that?  Why wouldn't she tell me to let my body heal instead of hitting it with more stressers?   My naturepath did say that I had probably reached burnout (briefly and in passing).  But never elaborated on it and never said what to do about it.  I am getting more from my reflexologist, comfort, understanding, no timed visits ( I am there for an hour but if we get talking sometimes I end up being there for 1.5 - 2 hours!), and suggested advice that makes sense.

Yes, I think it is time to just go easy (never thought I would ever ever say that!) let my body heal.  Do what I love to do, what I have to do and deal with everyday stress and not add any more.  AND key words; NOT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT.

In conclusion, although I don't feel this naturepath has helped me (as much as I wanted) I DO know she has helped my mother HUGE!  My mom was VERY sick a year ago - had been for about 2 years when she was introduced to this naturepath.  It has been a year for my mom and she has lost 40 lbs, has gone from severe sleep apnea to mild, from no energy and depression to lots of energy and spring cleaning her house!  My mom had reached burnout too but that was 15 years ago.. her body has had time to heal.
For myself I think it is just too soon. I reached burnout about 4 years ago but never stopped.  My body needs to rest from working so hard battling burnout.  

Now that I have written this I need to repeat it to my naturepath... I cancelled my appt with her yesterday as something had come up that I had to do... think I will send her an email and see what she says.  But I have made up my mind.  I will stay on the food program (avoiding trigger foods) but otherwise I will no longer have appts with her - maybe in a year or so when I feel my body can handle stress again; or maybe I will just go back for another allergy test and see where I am at... time will tell.