Wednesday, April 14, 2010

A downer

oh wait, I said I was going to be positive on these posts... well I am positively right that I have gained another 2 lbs.
With my son having a dirt bike accident last friday and in and out of dr's appts and ER... then yesterday I started a nasty stress headache that has continued into today...

The gals at my ww meeting were so sweet and made excuses for me.  Problem is I am all out of excuses - its just plain ol' bad eating and not drinking enough.  I have said I was going to go get groceries for the past 5 days... haven't done it yet.  Honestly I don't feel like doing it - along with not feeling like doing many things. 
I am looking for that spark - that energy - that get up and go - that organization - where the heck did it go?  
I know WHAT I have to do - I just can't seem to find the energy to do it.  Someone mentioned to me today "chronic fatigue".  I am beginning to feel that way but I dislike it very much.  I want to be that go-getter where I get lots of stuff done in a day and you can actually notice it! 
I used to keep house, work, help in the barn, fields, can, watch my kids, etc etc... now I can barely get my dishes and laundry done, a bit of paperwork and I am exhausted and sleep like a baby (unless my cats are fighting over my side of the bed). 
I just don't get it . 
Well, now that I have that all out - here's to plugging away at another week. 

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