Got it

I have that 3 month tracking journal in my hands.  The one that I was talking about in the previous post that is a Challenge thru my ww weekly meetings.
I have been on dangerous ground with my weight continually moving up and me getting more and more down over it.  I have decided its time to take the bull by the horns, whip myself into shape and get back on the wagon and stop waiting for the miracle that is never going to happen until I make it happen.
So far so good - i have had the tracker for 5 hours now and have tracked everything... I even stopped at a store and walked PAST the chocolate bar shelf that screams out "have a kitkat! or an oreo! maybe a Mr. Big! try a nut bar! maybe a ...  NNNNNNOOOOOOOO I had to scoot out the store real fast cause it was nearly a brainless automatic response to reach for one.  Thankfully I had purchased my item at the pharmacy where there were no bars talking to me!
Note to self: continue to stick strictly to the list in hand

I have a deadline... or better yet... a goal.
We have been invited to Luxembourg to a wedding April 2nd, 2011.  That gives me approximately 16 weeks to lose at least 20lbs...

I think that is doable.

 I won't stress over it but I need a goal.  I refuse to go to Europe FAT!  that will put me at the same weight I was when we went to NZ in 2007. Such a shame! I could  have been down to goal weight ages ago but I let things get in the way. 
I always find an excuse.  Here's to moving forward - let by gones be by gones and take it off!
Who knows, maybe I will do better than 20 lbs... but if not... so be it.
I am on my way once again...