Confession

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Okay, I will tell. *sigh*
I had a horrible week.  Nobodies fault but mine.
I don't know why I do this.. one good week then one bad, one good, one bad...
I sabotage myself.
My day today didn't start out well.  I slept in... yes, slept in.  I only sleep in on purpose but last night I didn't sleep well which usually doesn't stop me from getting up but I turned off my alarm and flicked on my radio... which is my normal routine.  I listened to the traffic report and the weather (at 6:30am).  The next thing I knew I heard my dh start his truck and head for the barn.  I looked up and it was 8:30am!  That means my son had got up and left for school and dh had come in from milking and had his breakfast and morning 30 minute nap and left to the barn to feed the cows.  Oh boy... had to be at WI for 9am.   I flew out of bed, got dressed, fed the cats, grabbed my keys, leaped into the car and started to drive down the driveway - I rounded the corner by the house to head for the road and WHOOOOOOAAAAAAAA
I slammed on the breaks!
There standing a few yards in front of me were my sheep and alpaca's!  What were THEY doing out?!
I slammed my car into reverse, got it turned around and headed to the barn in search of Karl (dh).   On the way I met up with the AI technician who had just bred one of our cows.  I told him the situation and to NOT go out the driveway until  I get Karl.  He nodded "yes" but he left anyway!  I searched for Karl in every place I could think of... by the time I found him I was panicked.  I had to get to WI!   The last time my sheep & alpaca's got out it took an hour and a half to get them back in!
He came running from an area in the barn "What's wrong?"  I burst into tears and spilled the story.   He jumped in the car with me (after a hug) and we headed to the house to get a grain bucket and the quad.
The sheep had come back up to the yard by the house but had no intention of going back thru the gate to the shed.
After yelling at the dogs to sit and stop chasing them out of the area we wanted them... I ran and opened the gate in the field that leads to their pasture - I dumped grain on the ground just inside the gate and stood back and waited... Karl was behind them sending them up the fence line.  They could either bolt back out into the field or cut in to the wide open gate.   They came closer & closer - I watched carefully and stood out into the field a little more - if I gave too much space they would not see the opening in the fence but would see the opening between me and the fence and bolt past me.  So I teetered with my arms wide shaking the grain bucket.  Zack, my alpaca was first up and he took a look at me and swayed towards the field - I leaned his way and suddenly the sheep made a mad dash!  Thru the gate!  wooo hoo!  Once one goes in they all follow - gotta love the herd instinct.
I closed off the gate by the area that had the broken fence so they couldn't get out again - will fix that tomorrow.
I looked at my watch - it felt like an eternity but it only took 20 minutes! I still had time to get to WI.
Off I went... only to step on the scale and find I had gained 2.2 pounds.  I could have cried... no, I did cry. 
Glad I had my reflexology appt right after.  That so helped me... don't know why I am so emotional right now.
Gotta get my tracker on track and get rid of the damage I caused.