Prodigal has returned

Yep, the guilt is over. 
and so is the program.

I gained 0.7 last week... and I quit JC.  

I was getting so sick. I felt bloated, breaking out in hives, the pain under my ribs that I have suffered with for a few years now had gone from "can live with it" to "very uncomfortable".
  The diet is very high carb and I still struggled with eating food out of a box or package.  I found the sodium high even though they said it was the recommended daily dose... but at home I don't ever cook with salt.
 I even only use mild spices.   Reason being is I get bad acid reflux... and my acid reflux was coming back with a vengeance eating their food. 
It was a very different way of eating... I don't deep fry my food) - I bake,bbq or broil - I don't eat breaded fish, chicken, beef... unless I make it and know what goes in it but that is RARE and they sent me breaded food all the time.  The snacks were, in my books, junk food.  I may have "junk food" 2x a week  but they had me eating them daily (again more sodium and carbs) 
On top of it all... I had a very hard time with the fact that it was food coming up from the USA.  I like to support my own Country and I felt I was betraying that.   Also, when they send you a packaged meal containing meat and you don't have to freeze it, it just sits on the shelf until its time to heat up and eat... WHAT pray tell, kind of preservative is in that package?
Last but not least... I did not mesh with the consultant.  She wasn't very supportive and certainly did not have any idea about me or my life.  We had NOTHING in common other than she had lost 40 lbs and I wanted to lose 40 lbs.  The girl who signed me up on the program I was able to talk to very easily and she "got me", "understood me".  Too bad the 2 couldn't switch roles.

I feel I have a huge weight lifted off my shoulders (and pocket book too, yikes!)  The only disappointing thing is I had purchased the program with the FIT Armband - its no good to me off the program and I haven't even taken it out of the package - its fully sealed and BRAND new! They will not refund me the money for it as they say "no program refunds".  
It has been a major learning curve for me *hanging head*......

I am now returning to regularly scheduled programing... WW... where I am the happiest.