End of Week 4

Who am I kidding?
Last week I tried to make myself feel better by doing 2 weights... yep, one with WW and the other with JC. They were both truthful - WW was 2.3lbs higher and JC was .6 lower than my weight the week before.
Well, it backfired...
I really need to be truthful with myself.
I am struggling with the JC food regime.  I thought it would get me more organized but now I am finding it very restrictive.  When I want to go out  I do not want to carry a box with me of food I can eat. When I want to make a nice dinner I want to be able to eat it too instead of "food for you, food for me"
I am thinking I made a BIG mistake! and on top of it spent a lot of money with this BIG mistake.
I haven't even taken the armband out of the box to track my calories in and out... its been a month.  what have I lost in a month?
Well as of today (going by my official weight loss with WW) 2.8 lbs.
I should have lost double that.
Don't get me wrong... I have lost a lot of inches which I am happy with... 7.5 inches down to be exact - that accounts for a lot too.

If I go by the weight I gave JC last week I actually gained 1.3lbs....  If I go by the weight I had from WW I lost 1.6.    My weight as of today, Wednesday is 176.8.
I am no longer going to play with the numbers.  Even if I am down on a Thursday when I talk to JC... it will all even out in the end - and I AM going down.  Its a slow process but it IS happening. 

At my WW meeting today we were told a true story... A lady made it to goal and was asked what changes has she made to get her to this moment?   Her reply was:  "My mind."

I really have to change my mind not just for weight loss but attitude and anything else that may be hindering my progress. 
I think the most frustrating part is when I slip and others raise their eyebrows (or make a comment).  I have to let it go...not let that bother me... not retort... I feel sometimes ppl watch me and want me to fail... to say "see, everyone fails at losing and keeping it off" .   I so want to prove them all wrong.  But my body seems to be proving them all right.

Okay, with that said I have my grocery list in hand and will be headed to the store soon after this to get more fruit and veggies in the house.   Good news, strawberry season has started :)

This journey isn't over til its over...