Today I went to weigh in. Honestly it was not on the top of my list. My Mom gave the push and I showed up. First up, it was my free week. I had forgotten about that. Then I lost 0.5 pounds. Hurrah? I don't feel that way. In my opinion, next week will Be up again. I'm having a hard time with the up and down. I work hard and it goes down in tiny increments. I'm ok with that. But when I continue to work hard and it leaps up and destroys my small victories.... That is when I get feeling very defeated.
I continually look back at 2007 when I was 10 lbs away from goal and wonder what the heck happened.
I really want to be close to goal for our 25 wedding anniversary but that goal seems to be fading into a foggy dream.
Maybe I am going about it all wrong. It doesn't help when I eat I get seriously bloated, have pain and get nasty acid reflux. My digestive system seems to be seriously screwed up. Probably a large part of my problem.
This morning this post was going to be titled "Last Post". I was going to shut down this blog along with "trying" to continue this WL. journey. I'm told " be happy with who you are and what you look like". So I was thinking this blog is not necessary when I need to accept me for me and others don't need to read my whining.
I am seriously thinking of terminating this blog as it seems to only be a complaints outlet. Once again I'm not feeling very positive.
1 comment:
Marianne, I wish I knew what to say to help you but in all honesty I don't. But I do understand the frustration and unhappiness. Right now I'm not doing the WL thing as I've too many other things on my plate but I am trying to watch what I eat and drink my water. The point is that I found it too stressful to track and etc so I'm choosing to be happy where I'm at right now. Life's too short to be stressed and frustrated.i hope this helps. You are doing great and you're a fantastic woman and great mom and wife. Don't forget that!
Heather F
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