It is my stress time... 3pm... I say stress cause this is when I normally start searching for food - eat far too much (not always unhealthy) and regret it later. I tend to set aside the little voice saying "don't do it!" I easily ignore.
Not today - so far... It is now nearly 4pm and I had my planned snack (2 points) and now I am grabbing my water bottle and getting as far away from food as possible. DS wants a hair cut and pick up a couple of things in town... so off we go. No sitting around thinking of food just sipping away at my water bottle (and looking for a public washroom!)
so far so good....
It is now 6pm... I have not munched on anything yet.. oh I have thought of it! I popped a peice of sugarless gum in my mouth instead. Supper (broiled chicken) has started to cook in the oven -now to start chopping veggies...
I think I just might make it today!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I promise I won't cry
I am up AGAIN!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH! 2.0 lbs to be exact. I just can't seem to get my head in the game. I have to work so hard for what I do lose and I am losing this battle. I am so frustrated - okay, I promised I wouldn't cry but I am.
For some reason I can't stay out of the chocolate chipits... and at around 3pm every day I get these "hunger" craves and I binge. I was so in control today until 4pm when I came in the house. Why can't I say no? Why do I let myself do what I do and then feel incredibly horrible after - physically and mentally?
I need to meal plan - would it help? I think so... I need to organize myself so that I don't have to "make" dinner. Or at least know what I am going to have. When its time to cook dinner I all of a sudden feel VERY tired and don't want to do anything. I have to figure some way to get over this stupid hump.
I HAVE to get serious and stop allowing myself to not succeed! I am so frustrated and yet I am still working against myself.
I HAVE to stop!
I have gained many lbs that I have worked so hard to get off - why have I done this to myself? I should be at goal - I HAVE To get to goal!
I am now going to go drown myself in water (go drink some water to flush the system) and realize tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it.
For some reason I can't stay out of the chocolate chipits... and at around 3pm every day I get these "hunger" craves and I binge. I was so in control today until 4pm when I came in the house. Why can't I say no? Why do I let myself do what I do and then feel incredibly horrible after - physically and mentally?
I need to meal plan - would it help? I think so... I need to organize myself so that I don't have to "make" dinner. Or at least know what I am going to have. When its time to cook dinner I all of a sudden feel VERY tired and don't want to do anything. I have to figure some way to get over this stupid hump.
I HAVE to get serious and stop allowing myself to not succeed! I am so frustrated and yet I am still working against myself.
I HAVE to stop!
I have gained many lbs that I have worked so hard to get off - why have I done this to myself? I should be at goal - I HAVE To get to goal!
I am now going to go drown myself in water (go drink some water to flush the system) and realize tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it.
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