Reversing the damage

Today was somewhat of a happy day.  I went to WI and knew I was down... I was hoping that I had corrected the damage from last week.... and hoping that I had done even better for lost time.    Well, I am happy to say I have lost 4.4 lbs. (I had gained 4 last week)
Now to keep it up for next week! I have come to the conclusion I have no idea what is the "key" to my successes but only to keep doing everything "right" that I can think of.  Keep up my water - stay away from dairy (icecream is a nasty!... cheese isn't much better but I love them both)
I am trying to focus on eating a larger breakfast, medium lunch and a light supper.   Key word "trying".  :)
The least I can do is maintain...

Kaboom!

Well, I sure had a shock yesterday.  I didn't doubt that I was going to gain weight as my week went from bad to worse but what I didn't expect is a 4 lb gain!
Yes, 4 lbs.  It doesn't get any better for me by retyping the # over and over either.  I tried to shrug it off but it hasn't worked. 
Then you know what?  The absolutely most frustrating part of it all? When I got up this morning I weighed myself and I was down, YES, down! 3 lbs.  Go figure.
To top my day off yesterday I had a migraine come crashing in on me.  I still have remnants of it today so trying to do everything possible to keep it at bay.

My poor mom got to hear me rant for over a half hour this morning about everything and I mean EVERYTHING that bugged me - laughter, anger, tears... *sigh*
I wasn't very receptive to her trying to be helpfuls  "why don't you..." & "I'll go with you"... she finally said "well dear your not going to get anything accomplished with that kind of attitude - you need a cup of tea & relax for 10 minutes then go at things with a fresh clean mind."  She closed with "I will call you later to see how your doing"      
What would I ever do without my mom... maybe not have the guilt of always dumping on her! 

I desperately need a massage... my neck and back are killing me along with my head... I hope my massage therapists calls me back soon as I know I am not going to make it to my tuesday appt - need one sooner.

Day 7 and a new week

I missed posting a few days here but none the less I still worked on tracking and eating right.
Today is my official WI at my WW meeting so will see what comes of it. 
Not a whole lot to report other than I have been very busy and hence, no postings for the last few days.
I have been keeping up with recording my steps - made it to Medicine Hat now and about a quarter of the way to Swift Current!  A lot of steps are needed to get to either of these places!  You'd think there might be a small town in between :o)
Well, its off to my meeting - will update you upon return.

Okay - I am back from WI -  I lost this week - hoping to keep up the momentum!  I lost 1.4lbs.. I thought I had lost a bit more but whatever - I will take it.
Here's to another week of tracking and keeping up my water :)

Day 3 hmmm

I have made it thru day 3 but I am not going to lie.. I did kind of... well... probably... for sure... had some chocolate chip cookies.  Not that I couldn't have them but I have been trying to avoid them.  I knew I was going to have trouble as soon as I started to make them - about 15 dozen to be exact.  I chewed gum, had a healthy snack, washed my hands several times during the process to make sure I didn't lick my fingers... but in the end I had one when hubby came in from the barn then another for dessert - then another a couple of minutes ago. 

NO MORE.
Its out, I have been honest, I am going to track them and move on.  I have drank my water, ate healthy otherwise.  So no guilt here.
Most of the cookies will be gone tomorrow as I have baked them for a tour coming to our farm.  Then I will forget about them all together. 
Perfect, good, now on to Day 4

Day 2 and counting

I have made it thru day 2 without binging and I have had no chocolate - I was tempted to binge but have had no cravings for chocolate... my weapon?  Sugarless gum.  I think I need to go buy it in bulk! lol   I don't like to chew it cause of the aspartame but I have to do something! it seems to be helping.
When I had the feeling to eat outside of my plan... I either chewed gum or went outside and worked in the yard.  I am getting a lot of yard work done! LOL
Tonight my dd has gone out and she said she would bring back dessert.  I hesitated... then said "none for me".   It was hard! but I HAVE to stay on track - its ONLY day 2 of being very firm with myself.

I was quite happy this morning... I stepped on the scale and had lost the 2 lbs I had gained... oh to keep this going!
I would like to thank my friends for their kind words of wisdom and support helping me find my way back on the right trail again. 

Day 1

It is my stress time... 3pm... I say stress cause this is when I normally start searching for food - eat far too much (not always unhealthy) and regret it later.  I tend to set aside the little voice saying "don't do it!"  I easily ignore.
Not today - so far... It is now nearly 4pm and I had my planned snack (2 points) and now I am grabbing my water bottle and getting as far away from food as possible.  DS wants a hair cut and pick up a couple of things in town... so off we go.  No sitting around thinking of food just sipping away at my water bottle (and looking for a public washroom!)
so far so good....
It is now 6pm... I have not munched on anything yet.. oh I have thought of it!  I popped a peice of sugarless gum in my mouth instead.   Supper (broiled chicken) has started to cook in the oven -now to start chopping veggies...
 I think I just might make it today!

I promise I won't cry

I am up AGAIN!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!  2.0 lbs to be exact.  I just can't seem to get my head in the game.  I have to work so hard for what I do lose and I am losing this battle.  I am so frustrated - okay, I promised I wouldn't cry but I am.
For some reason I can't stay out of the chocolate chipits... and at around 3pm every day I get these "hunger" craves and I binge.   I was so in control today until 4pm when I came in the house.  Why can't I say no?  Why do I let myself do what I do and then feel incredibly horrible after - physically and mentally?  
I need to meal plan - would it help? I think so... I need to organize myself so that I don't have to "make" dinner.   Or at least know what I am going to have.  When its time to cook dinner I all of a sudden feel VERY tired and don't want to do anything.  I have to figure some way to get over this stupid hump.
I HAVE to get serious and stop allowing myself to not succeed!   I am so frustrated and yet I am still working against myself. 
I HAVE to stop! 
I have gained many lbs that I have worked so hard to get off - why have I done this to myself? I should be at goal - I HAVE To get to goal!
I am now going to go drown myself in water (go drink some water to flush the system) and realize tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it.